The Sick Day

It's another when I am stuck at home, unable to work and feeling gloomy. Why? That's because I got a real bad dizzy spell called vertigo. Apparently, a friend of mine said it's some old people sickness...

Thanks for making me feel old  Of course it wasn't fun being stuck at home as a sick person. To make it worse, it was a heavy thunderstorm. Thanks a lot God for cooperating with the mood.

Impatient

I had troubles concentrating lately. I mean like, my attention span is sort of 5 to 10 minutes. And I hate to sit down to read uncomfortably. I got long legs, I can't sit still in a confined space. I hate being tall. It gives me these sort of problem, making me train my bloody useless willpower. It makes me grumpy most times. So not comfortable at all. My legs and my ass hurts.

I hate people who makes me wait. Seriously, think that they are some queen or kings? Those gotta die too some day. How can they just conveniently forget? What are they, senile?  Don't freaking work then. You don't belong here, you belong in the old folks home. Go away. Wrong universe.

It's Obvious

It's been so obvious that I am lazy
It's been so obvious that I am always doing things half-assed
It's been so obvious that I am always demotivated
It's been so obvious that I am unable to concentrate
Look at my last post and you'll figure it out

I have been trying my best to work on a story and I realize, my muse has been going on holiday for far too long. Reading books like Fifty Shades series are not helping at all. It's like my daily activities are killing my creative juices as well and I don't know what I can do, like seriously.

A call for help isn't ? It's so obvious that I just wanted an easy way out, which I presume is the same with everyone else. And we all know that the easy way out isn't going to happen. Miracle only happens to those who really needs it. Not for people like me.

Let's just say I am bored and I do not know how to continue my story, so I decided to randomly ink here and there and everywhere.

Wattpad 30 Days Challenge

With me being brain dead on what to write on lately, let me just wrap up some stuff.

Having just changed to a new job, I'm still adjusting and since it's year end, my boss are ALWAYS flying on holiday and not around *bore*bore*bore* Besides the new job adjusting, baby is celebrating her one year old birthday on November, which is just next month!! YES! It's the BIG 1 and I've been busy searching for her cakes, venue for the party and also the decorations! Lots of things to do and very exciting! But also being a lazy person, I'm always looking for the best way out to solve whatever issue I have on.

So now, on to the topic, what is the Wattpad 30 Days challenge? It's just a writing challenge, you see. Start on 1st November 2014, they are challenging writers to pledge to write a 50,000 words write up until the end of November 2014. Challenging , isn't?

Now I wonder if I can accomplish this feat... ? Of course I'd be worried and shits like that because I'm always having writers block! I just hope that other accomplished writers on Wattpad can give good writing tips for my heads up and stuff like that. I pledge to do this #JustWriteIt ! Follow my work here !

For Charity, Not for Your Bloody Publicity

Before touching onto related post about the topic, let's have a moment of silence for the victims of #MH17 as they are coming home today to Malaysia for burials. They will always be remembered and condolences to the friends and families of those affected. I'm again deeply saddened by this as I know, in this very flight of MH17, there were a great number of kids in the flight, all just awaiting to go for holiday, not the last flight of their life. Rest in peace, poor souls.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/themalaymailnewspaper?fref=photo

Now, seriously, I believe most nowadays know about this #IceBucketChallenge but, does anyone really know what is it for and the true cause of it ? I believe not. Everyone seems to find it fun and wanting to do it for the sake of publicity, and most especially, wasting the precious drops of water.

Hey, the true hashtag of ice bucket challenge was #ALSIceBucketChallenge and what is ALS? Not much people even bothers to go look this up and let me tell you what it is for the benefit of you lazy bums out there.

The official website of ALS : http://www.alsa.org/about-als/what-is-als.html

To summarize this, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) or a disease often referred to as "Lou Gehrig's Disease"  affects nerve cells in the brain and the spinal cord. In time, ALS patients suffers from movement difficulty to total paralysis. As of current, there are no cure for this disease although there are some medicines here and there being developed to slow it down, not totally stopping it. Probably because not much people knows about it since mostly affected was those adults between 40 and 70 and with only 2 out of every 100,000 people will get the disease each year, this Ice Bucket Challenge thing started as an awareness campaign.

So, I don't need to further explain the ice bucket challege since most people knows about it. But what people don't know, is why are the celebrities doing it. People, it's not being done out of fun, it's being done to raise awareness about ALS and also to DONATE. See, you don't know bout this part now, do you?

The ice bucket challenge started in the States when this golfer guy, Chris Kennedy, a golfer from Sarasota in Florida, was nominated by a friend to it and soon his friends started doing it and the hashtag #StrikeOutALS came along together with the #ALSIceBucketChallenge . The craze started on July and by end of July, the ALS Association reported a dramatic increase in donations. Yes, DONATIONS is what it's all about.

Starting from the States, the craze went on to infect people all over the world, doing videos of them doing this. The videos usually consist of the person saying who nominated them, pours the ice water on themselves, nominates someone else to do it within 24 hours or donate $100 to ALS Association and that's it. What they FORGET was the part to DONATE.

Kudos to Charlie Sheen for doing it right and Steve-O from Jackass for saying it right.

Source: https://uk.celebrity.yahoo.com/gossip/omg/charlie-sheen-does-ice-bucket-challenge-but-with-money-instead-water-legend-122120251.html

Source: http://instagram.com/officiallysteveo

So there you go, the challenge is one thing, the donations is another thing, so people, once you've done the challenge, don't forget to educate them WHERE to donate for the ALS Association.

My Breastfeeding Journey (Part 3)

This time, this is definitely gonna be the part that most parent dislike the most, but definitely no way of avoiding this. I mean, everybody does this no matter the age. POOP. Yes, everybody dislikes this part, same goes to me. But you still gotta clean up that mess your kids made. 

Normally people would think that it naturally stinks. But believe me, breastfed babies stools smell differently. Not badly stinky smelly type, but more like stinging maybe like sickly sweet smell. That's how I would describe it. Most parents would not be sure how it would look like or smell like or even how many times a baby would poop a day or within a week. Questions like that arises all the time because, this is definitely how you'd monitor your babies health.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TheBreastfeedingAdvocatesNetwork/

This picture above says it all. Follow the guides and it will tell you perfectly how a baby roughly should be although most people would say, different babies different thing. More or less true that. But, generally, it should follow as per the picture. This way you do not need to worry if they are well fed or not. 

Another part related to poop is that, most mothers raise their concerns that when their babies reach 2 months and above, some babies just don't poop for more than 3-4 days. Now, reverted from my pediatrician, some babies just don't poop for up to 7 days. But once over the 7th day, you better bring the baby to go check up. I mean, you don't want to get bloated belly and not knowing what's going on inside. Bad stuff.

Again, different babies different thing. Once a mother even shared that her baby did not poop near to a month, either you send the baby to check up or some would revert that if the baby is fully breastfed, they can even go up to 40 days no poop. So long the baby is healthy, good appetite, clear urine, no fatigue or temperature, then all is good. You'd be worrying for no pooping, but some mothers worry bout pooping almost every feeding, THAT is normal too. 

Poop colors may change from time to time due to mommies diet, for instance, that greenish poop could be from moderate to heavy fruits and vegetables intake or more foremilk than hindmilk. Differences in poop color, you may refer to this useful bunch of information here: Diaper Decoder. There's nothing to be worried about usually when it comes to poop and pee. 

Source: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TheBreastfeedingAdvocatesNetwork

This wonderful network really shared a tremendous lot of information that a breastfeeding mother would need and thanks to this great bunch of mothers inside, even with bumps here and there, I manage to breastfeed my baby girl up to 8 months now heading to my second milestone which is the BIG 1 year old. Yay to me !

Of course, as the baby grows, their intakes consist of solids and let's not forget the scariest part, teething. These two condition do affect the stools. For instance, intakes of solid, depending on the diets, babies MAY or MAY NOT poop that often and their stools gradually loses that sickly sweet smell to just plain nasty smell but not as bad as fully solid like your own poop smell. REALLY.  The color may also change to be a little blackish, or brownish maybe. When it comes to teething, it would be stickier and looks ... seedy but not seedy. There might even be slightly hard stools. This is where the parents would have to remember that each time you feed your babies with solid, you'd have to feed them equal amount of water. Of course the mother would have to drink more water as well. 

So you see, there is no way one can really avoid doing this part of the job when you're a parent! 

Darkness In The Hearth

Darkness looms over the day,

Paths become unclear,

Trees and flowers wither away,

It doesn't matter where you hide,

It will still haunt you by the end,

It will still haunt you endlessly.

Nervous, fear, anxiety covers you,

Cold sweats breaking out,

Bloodshot eye darts left and right,

You can run,

But you cannot hide,

You know it will and can still haunt you.

You cry out for help,

Your silent cries went unheard,

Like water poured over leaf, 

It went ignored even if it is heard,

Nobody listens, 

Nobody cares.

You reach out your hands,

In hope that someone will reach yours,

Held out as you may,

The hands were frozen overtime,

No warmth came to you,

All that's left is just hard cold chills.

All that's left to do,

Is wonder if anyone,

Or anything,

Will hear you,

Will see you, 

Will cross your paths,

Will reach out to you,

Or not. 

Yet Another Drop of Tear Saved

The typical mongrel that I am,
Everywhere you see, I am there, because we all look alike
But you see, that's what I am,
The typical mongrel that you see on the streets,
The ones that are unwanted.

I am born on the streets,
Grew up not knowing who's my mom two months later, because you see,
She's just gone like that. I don't know if I've got siblings or not.
Left to fend for myself, I contracted illness.
Because you see, that's the typical mongrel that I am.
Hungry day and night, Cold and hot and yet, nobody cares.

Small humans threw sticks and stones at me,
Big humans swing their hands at me,
Some big humans even threw water at me and yelled at me.
Oh, did I mention, there's even some that threw me to the street,
When all I ever wanted was some scraps of their foods.
Or maybe love and attention perhaps?

As one of the lucky ones, I've been saved from the streets,
By a group of kindhearted people.
But you see, I'm still homeless in a way. I'm still sick and I fear humans.
They put me in a cage, fed me what they can afford to, hosing my waste off with me still in the cage.
I'm still shivering in fear, cold and hunger, not to mention pain as well.

One day they just brought me out of my cage,
To where I do not know. Perhaps to a walk? Play hopefully?
After some distance driving, they brought me to a place, put me in a cage again.
Why so many people? Where is this place? Are you going to bully me or beat me again?
But wait, you mean no harm to me, I can tell that much.
You going to bring me home? Pretty please?
I'm the typical mongrel, not your famous breeds of dogs or cute small sized dogs,
But I will love you as much as you love me, that much I can promise you.

Like any other dogs, I can be trained, love and get along.
Treat me well and I'm all about you.
Despite being the typical mongrel that I am.

Similar But Not The Same, WattPad vs Keitai Shousetsu ( 携帯小説 )

Previously, I've mentioned before about the infamous trend going on in Japan called the Keitai Shousetsu ( 携帯小説 ) where mobile phone users write using their mobile phone and their stories on each chapter is quite short but interesting. An American website, TextNovel.com, lets its user experience the same way as the Japanese does, only it's in English  (●´∀｀●) hurrah for me too!

Now this brand new site that I came across, is somehow similar to Keitai Shousetsu feel but different in a way, whereby, instead of writing short on each chapter, authors can write as if they are writing novels. Very western feel to it. （￣ー￣）I like this too of course. Wattpad is without doubt, a site filled with good story tellers. I've been hooked on to a few unknowingly and have been continuously following their story. Very addictive if you ask me. 

Unlike TextNovel which have an application that is available in iOS platform, Wattpad have application for both iOS and Android platform. Interestingly, it is also available on Blackberry platform. 

Another plus point for Wattpad is that, if you like the story that you are reading and you would like to share it to your other pals on other social sites, you can actually choose to embed them to your websites! Of course you can share them on Google +, Twitter, Tumblr and etc. Nice, isn't? I don't need to mention about Facebook as well, do I ? Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

Pros and cons shared, I like both sites and am still following the stories from both sites. What can I say, writers from around the world fascinates me and the way they spin their plot out is even more interesting. That is what I like about these writers. Unlike those who had their books published, these writers are more raw and true, sometimes, writing out of their own feelings and fantasy. 

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For people who reads, which I doubt much will even do so. Just a little imagination running in my mind so I decided to unwind it into a little story.

A little story of a girl who's constantly being that brave little one, no matter who is the bully or how big is their size, she'd stand up against them, protecting the bullied ones. This resulted in people looking at her in a weird way, girls not wanting to hang out with her since they figured she is boyish, I mean, she's strong in her own way. Guys hang out with her since they think she can fight like a guy too. Then again, in this little girl mind, all she want is just to protect people who she can call, "Friends."

As she grows, she kept on doing the same, irregardless who was bullied. She's everyone's protector in school and all the way until college. But life takes a turn when she felt that she's being left out, unable to love since hey, all guys treated her like a "brother". Girls feared her and stayed away from her since she's kinda too vulgar for them to be able to accept. So who is "friends"? This question keeps popping into her mind every now and then. 

Finally, when one day a group of people who accepts her for who she is appears, one by one, forming a big family for her, so she thinks. Blending into it for years, she had never felt happier than before, I mean, come on, she finally finds someone who she can love properly, "friends" that she can rely on, call on, talk to, have fun with, love at and protect. Little did she know, it's all just her. 

So one fine day, this kid just had to go and make a stupid little mistake. A little mistake that costs her the "family" that she built. Choosing the wrong path of life I would say. Again, this kid comes to think of the same question again after so many years (sigh* aren't you bored at the least?), "Who is friends?"

Strong as she may be on the outside, she never fail to break down every now and then when she is alone especially in the shower. Think about it, who could tell why is your eyes all puffed up after shower? You can always give the excuse of, "Oh, shampoo got into my eyes bad." 

So technically, when I thought of it, I laughed at the kid that is in my imagination, then again, I truly did pitied her. I still hadn't been able to come up with an ending for her, seems like it's too early, something like that. Maybe I can elaborate it into a long story? I don't know. 

Festive Eats !

I know it's kinda late in blogging about this but heck, I always believed in better late than never right? Enough said, in my country, Malaysia, last week was a week of fun, eats and play as we have a time called Hari Raya for the Muslims in my country. It's a time where family get together, eat together, and other wonderful things after a month of fasting. The best thing about these two month is that, FOODS!! Never ending of wonderful mouthwatering foods!! 

Most of the foods are without doubt, very sinful, and very delicious. I would say it is all a must have. It's undeniably fattening, but hell, which awesome food is not? That's the reason why they are awesome right? The top picture is what we have, called Lemang. It's sticky rice cooked in bamboo and believe me, together with the curry, it's fabulous! I'd never have enough of that.

 This one, I believe most knows it. The infamous satay ! Depending on your choice, you may have various type of meat to cook. My personal favorite, beef and chicken! Some even comes with rabbit meat or camel meat. Ohhhh, ostrich meat are delicious too. Juicy and tender! Together with the curry that's mixed with nuts, it's an awesome treat that one can have for dinner and yes, just by eating this alone, you can be actually very full. Price vary but cheapest of chicken meat it cost about RM0.30 per stick. Totally worth it. 

The lovely darling here, is the traditional nasi lemak ! The name itself mean fats. But then again, it's delicious!So, who cares! Really, when it comes to this one, it's also another must have during this wonderful season. It's a must have, cannot be missed, MUST EAT meal. I do so insist. You can practically find it everywhere and I personally like those that is served like this. Brings out the tradition in it and yeah, for some reason, it taste better served on banana leaves. 

This is like an extra, but also one of my favorite. It's called Ayam Percik. Not sure how to translate this into english but it's chicken meat with some awesome marinated sauce. Seeing it with the sticks, yes, it's meant to be grilled. It's definitely a huge piece, with each stick enough for a person, especially if you're a small eater. Mostly, during the fasting month, this is sold in the market and the aroma of this would overwhelm most ! :D I do miss this the most as I can only find awesome ones during the fasting month. Other than that, it's not so nice. 

Of course, another perks of having these sort of festive season here in this country is that, in town, it's usually empty and there's no traffic or whatsoever. We always look forward to such festive seasons as it gives great foods, smooth as white tofu traffic, family gatherings and of course, away from work and classes. It's a get fat and lazy moment, but, everyone loves it.

So The Wise Says

Regardless how many times you hear people say words of motivation or whats not, by the end of it, it is always easier said than done. Take my situation for instance, I feel like shit right now and a dear friend of mine told me this, "Complain about it also one day, fretting about it also one day pass, so why not just smile it off?" I know that, but again, easier said than done. It's kinda hard to control emotions, ya'know? 

Words like these are sweet and motivational, isn't? How many of you really live this off? What about when you are discriminated, looked down at, bullied because of various reasons?

That's what they said. But everyone needs a daily dose of this to get things going I think. Nobody is born awesome, perfect, genius (OK there's quite a number with this one), or heck, even saintly. All right, I'm exaggerating but I think in truth, nobody is truly perfect, so yeah, we do need a daily dose of this thing to get our self going. 

We are what we are. We are just humans. We feel, we think, we critic, we hate, we love, we cry, we laugh or even worse, we kill. We're made of flesh and emotions, we're not robots. Don't blame others or even yourself when the negative mind comes. It's just there for a moment, don't dwell in it. 

Regardless of type it's for, I think it applies to most situation, even mine :) So really, get over it, stop dwelling in the past, walk forward, shall we? There's more of these everywhere, so we all just need to google it up :D

It's the Life !

Pretty much everything has changed for me and I'd say, a hell lot of things changed in fact since the last post. Undeniably, I was lazy, now, I might as well a pick up my pace. I half considered closing this blog down and carry on with the new one elsewhere. That will be discovered soon. As of now, I'm going to keep on using this site for my blogs. Technically, for now, I'm lost at what to post, thus the constant delaying on updates. I'm no longer the one going out for parties and clubs or whats not. Rather, the life has gotten really dull. Maybe it's what most people say, part of the process of growing up and sacrificing for something else. 

 True enough, I am indeed sacrificing most of my time for something else. That's to be announced when it's all done :D On a side note, I'd like to point out to all that stop expecting party pictures,hot chicks, hot hunks or whats not in trend. I don't do trend. I set my own trend. Look at it this way, people are crazy about minions right now, here, in my country. Minions as in those mini yellow guy who speaks alien language in Despicable Me.

Yes, these little yellow guy in jumpers with goggles on. People rushes to McDonald's and queue up from midnight or whenever to it's open just to get their hands on these little guys. See what the crazy queue and traffic it caused? Both caught at different state in my country.

These two pictures is sourced from my friend, Shuffler Kenneth. Notice those long ass queue? I'm probably dead asleep while these people try to get their hands on the minion toy and throw the foods away, untouched. Now that's truly despicable. But, hurrah to these bunch of people! 

These guys collected the unwanted meals from those hobos that bought the the meal set for the minion toy and donate them to various homeless and orphanages. It seems like they have taken down their Facebook page or  I'm just purely lousy at looking up for people/group in Facebook. Whatever it is, if you don't eat them, give them to those who can't have proper meal, damn it. Don't go wasting foods and just cuz we're not living in Bosnia or Africa, doesn't give you all the damn right to waste foods. 

Anger, Sorrow, Depression, Hate

Well, you know what’s the most depressing thing that happened throughout this entire year? My birthday month turns out to be my most unluckiest and most depressing month ever.

My college life sucks as of now, nothing goes well during this entire semester. Everything has to go wrong and it adds on to the depression that has been growing behind my mind, why on earth am I back to studies wasting my money when I could be earning instead and not be miserable me for the entire course? Nothing good comes out of this college life, that’s for sure. I just wanted my paper done. Is that so hard to ask for? I just want everything to go smooth sailing. IS THAT SO HARD TO ASK FOR SERIOUSLY?

Boyfriend has not been feeling great ever since his leg injury started and frankly speaking, being unable to help in any other way especially even the thoughts of trying to help financially, can be blown away easily and this adds on my depression two fold. Thanks to my stupidity of going back wasting my time and money on studies, this is the first time in my entire life feeling this helpless and being so fucking dependant on a sick person. I’m fucked up since all I can do is complain.

Having a car window broken by some assholes might not be a big deal for everyone, but it is, for me. Having lost an entire car before while it was parked just right outside the house has a big impact on me. I feel for things. I’m cheapskate. I have to be. My modulator was swiped, my thumbdrive was swiped, my coins was swiped, my touch and go card was swiped. Yes, it’s no big deal, but having the stress and finding the car in that state on a rainy morning just made me snap instantly. Seriously, breaking into an old car for all these when there are better cars around the area? Again, I don’t understand the mentality of these sonofabitches and will never do. But one thing I do know, I promise and I will keep this promise that if I see any of these happening right in front of my eyes, with chance, I will do unimaginable things to these people. By all means.

Yes, everyone wants a change to the government. But what about the people themselves? What matters even if the government changes but not the people themselves? You can probably get more better shits for your own good but what’s next? More shit to come? You’re never gonna change yourself even IF THERE IS A REVOLUTION. Are you gonna start caring about the person next to you? Are you gonna start smiling to everyone you see? Be courteous? No cut queues? Not acting like a barbarian? Not being a sonofabitch? Not being a snob? Hold out a helping hand to those in need anytime anywhere without thinking of the person’s background,whether they disgust your or not like cleaning for the elderly or those with mental illness or hoping for anything in return? Will you?! NO, YOU WON’T. Mark my words, even IF there is a revolution, the history will repeat itself if the people does not change themselves first. Before you even THINK of helping out others, why don’t you HELP those AROUND YOU for instance, HELP YOUR OWN FAMILY FIRST then only you start helping others?

Wish You Gone

Frankly speaking, I hate all Malaysian drivers, be it cars or bikes. You drive slow on the fast lane when people are in a rush. You turn without signals. You cut queues at the toll. You can't bloody stay in line and cause more traffic. You just gotta zigzag scaring the shit out of others. You just gotta stick close to the front drivers to tell them to get lost. You just gotta turn on high lights to irritate the drivers in front at night. You just gotta driver faster when you see others signalling to turn to avoid slowing down. You just gotta forget the bloody laws when driving. You just gotta go even more slower taking your own sweet time at the slow lane (going below 40 KMPH is over the board). You just gotta stay in the middle of two lane. Bottom word, you like to bloody endanger other peoples life. If you want to kill yourself, there are tons of way. There are practically more than 101 way to kill yourself without having to endanger others on the road. So fuck off.

Getting stuck in a traffic for an entire hour just from Kepong (Desa Parkcity area onwards) to SS2, getting into a fucked up accident at Bulatan Rothman in SS2 thanks to another dumb driver (well I'm not hurt cuz if I am, I wouldn't be blogging this), end of class, coming back home, another dumb bitch just gotta make me ALMOST get into another accident. What the hell?

Coming to class, nobody to show up, no information given, no questions asked. Class delayed like hell. Nothing being taught in class. Time being wasted. What the hell?

I'm having such a bad time and end of this month surely prove to be a real messed up time for me. Well, doesn't matter. Things just gotta get more 'lovely' with all the uncooperative people around. Lovely, isn't? I should have been a selfish bitch at the start and why should I even give compassion towards those that does not think for me at all? I'm all talk about being a bitch but never acting like one, I guess I should be a total bitch and I seriously do, wish you will get fucked up and gone in the end. Don't rely on me anymore and fuck you all Malaysia drivers, including myself at times. The least I do is signal, bitch.

Rewrite

Yeah, you’d probably this of Asian KungFu Generation (Ajikan) song Riraito [リライト]. No, it’s not. Ugh, I don’t even know how to properly put this in words. It’s a massive jumble of different feelings into a small matchbox. Because of one simple incident, because of the high expectations, I felt like it was crushing me up until now.

I’m not trying to blame anyone. I’m trying hard not to. I just can’t help it. When one is not cooperative, I start to blame like hell. When one starts to escape the work, I blame like hell. Yeah, I study management but my management is hellish. What the heck, it’s just one of my presentation but everything just screws up and when the lecturer told us to redo it, I’m totally crushed. Wait, not even there, the beginning of the presentation, I’m already crushed. I wanted to hide in a corner and nobody finds me or dig myself a hole and jump into it that moment. Everything is just wrong. It’s already been 4 days after that incident, yet I still feel the pressure of it. Another chance was given to present again on Monday and seriously, I’m hoping that if the word redo it comes out again, I’ll just have a heart attack or whatever attacks and die on the spot. Let them suffer the guilt. I couldn’t be bothered with people who does not know what they want and people who does not know how to do their shits properly.

See, I’m off blaming people again when I myself can’t lead properly. What is so hard with doing a presentation in front of people you’ve already known quite well? I’ve no freaking idea. No, I don’t have the confidence at times that I do well, but I just had the confidence to talk my way out. Smile and if I don’t know, tell them I’ll get it to them later. The least is I admit or shit, do your research more importantly before you freaking present.

Crap, that song did indeed play itself when I’m writing this. Guess I should rename the title. English version though.

You Feel Me?

It’s crazy when one is trying to understand the other. I mean, you are not the worm in their stomach or their brain, how can you possibly know what one thinks unless you’re a freakin’ mind reader? I doubt the existence anyway. Ability the read body language, yes, but not the mind. Yet, that’s not my point. Everyone is actually a simple person. The only part that makes them complicated, is when they themselves wanna be complicated. But, that’s what being a human is all about. Isn’t?

Like for now, I was actually thinking on, how the hell can guys tend to be so insensitive towards their partners’ feeling? At times when the partner were probably dropping hints (either too-freaking-obvious or you’re-freakin’-blind-if-you-can’t-read-this hints) that they want to show them something that the partner is happy of but yet wanted to give the surprise feel to it, the guy just DON’T bloody get it. This is from a girl point of view. Simple, no? We do not like to be obvious, we like you guys to BE OBSERVANT TO SHOW YOU FREAKIN’ CARE ENOUGH to realize what changed or happened to us. Girls do not trust words. Girls trust only when the guy shows that they notice, not when guy are going after the girl, but keeps the observant mode on till the day death-do-us-part and everything will be happy happy jolly jolly with the girls. Ok, that is my biased side since hey, you can’t blame me since I’m born a female. I’m not entirely biased at the same time

At the same time, because of the whole be-observing-will-you thing from the girls, the guy find it as a pain in the ass and they’d rather like things to be simple and straight forward. Show-and-tell-me-and-stop-making-me-guess-damnit is always there in the end when a relationship goes to more than a year, if you’re lucky, later than that. When the two thoughts clashes, that’s why the guy would always think, why on earth are the females so complicated?! Well, the guy is tired from work, had a beer or two with the buddies after work, came home to look for comfort at home with the family and wife (prolly in bed most of the time, that would be their thoughts) and the guy were given a can-you-see-what-i-did-to-my-hair-today session by the girl (or kids if they were married), a blank look will most likely be given and the bed or TV would be more attractive than the girl is. Be aware ladies!

I guess, this is the most general argument that happens between couples and when they do not discuss but blames each other for not understanding, please get the drain unclogged so that the word relationship can go down there. So girls, why can’t we be straight forward sometimes to give the guys a break and guys, why can’t you be observant sometimes to make us girls know that you care? Everything is so obvious and simple. Why making things hard? You feel me?

Another Lazy Moments

As the title says it all, I’ve really been lazy to blog again. It seems to me that people takes blogging as a mean to make money. True, I’m not saying that you can’t, just that, from my view, it’s making the meaning of blogging, or even writing diaries (if one still does nowadays) meaningless. Everything is all so commercialized, so money-minded, caring so much about the hit counts and the money that the ads make for them. Not to say I don’t care about the money, I just don’t like the way things changed. You can say I’m not into the changes

It’s my semester break right now and it’s almost over. I’ve been going out constantly with friends for tea, either that or constantly trying to cling to my boyfriend like a sloth if I could. It seems that the most correct thing to do would be spending more quality times with my family. Thus, I’m back at my parents place the whole month. Well, most of it. The best part is, I can’t believe I am addicted to the chinese drama series and with all the time I have, I’m actually quite ahead of most of my pals I even ruined the ending of Relic Of An Emissary for my boyfriend. Wasting my time by doing so actually (yes it’s a waste of my time, no doubt of it) lets me relax more and, I’m a happier person ever since I left the graveyard shift job.

Never mind the drama series, boyfriend and I even did a movie marathon once when he’s on so-called-MC. When everyone is busy at work, we’re watching Pirates of The Caribbean: On Strangers Tide 3D the day it released and Priest after that. What a day. Lunch before the first movie and dinner after the second movie, good times spent wisely, I think.  Both movie did not make me really happy though. The only movie I am happy with so far for now, it is only Fast and Furious 5. Lots of action and some bloopers for me to look at and laugh when everyone is quietly watching. The only movie that I’ve heard not bad and have yet to watch, would be Thor. I’d wait for the download

Now the next part in line would be waiting for Cindy to get her break so that we all could go for the indoor skating and indulge in the sinful pork rib! Not to mention maybe wanting to go for a session of Xbox 360 Kinect at Xhale in Millennium Square. I know I’ll have time for those but, it itches more when you’re on break and rather have nothing to do at all.

Johnnie Walker Black Circuit Lounge April 2011

Held at Le Marquee, Palace of the Golden Horses and spotting quite a number of celebrities like Serena C, Jojo Struys, Fay Hokulani, Hannah Tan (who's the emcee of the night along with some guy I forgot his name) and Reshmonu and having some of them just directly in front of me really makes the whole party having the VVIP feel.

Cocktails served and a bottle of Black Label for every table (which will be refilled with another bottle once empty) plus two mixer and cocktail foods served by 'butlers', I'm definitely a happy person once again going for all these events.

Nonetheless, here's the pictures ! Celebrities pics are not available cuz I'm too busy trying out the cocktails and foods :D








DJ I-Tek from Hong Kong doing his stuff which I personally think is seriously uber awesome-ness and he brought six dancers with him!!






These cars were spotted outside!! When we reached, it was empty, but halfway through the party, this is what we saw... These two are just a small part of it...there's a Porsche and a Ferrari...



And here is our gifts from Johnnie Walker event ! Since we're not under the 'By Invitation Passes' but the contest winner list, we got these babies instead of the miniature Black Label bottle. I loved these better than the bottle seriously.

Final Swim

It lies unmoved, the face strained and pearls of sweats formed
It tries to open its eyes but to no avail
Flashes of pictures come and go
Flash, bright white with puddles of blood
Flash, dark grey with flashes from thunder
Flash, pitch black with heavy rain falling on face
It tries to feel its surrounding but to no avail
All felt was very wet, not dry
Deep, thick, hateful stench, but wet
It tries to listen to it surrounding but to no avail
All heard was sounds of heavy rain drop
All heard was sounds of thunder, Angry Thor slamming his lights
Not even a slight insect sound was heard
Nor the frog who would sing under the rain
Try as it may, with the senses all dulled, to no avail
It lies without peace, breathing its final breath,
It leaves the shell
The shell that was soaked heavily on a pool of tainted blood