Impatient

I had troubles concentrating lately. I mean like, my attention span is sort of 5 to 10 minutes. And I hate to sit down to read uncomfortably. I got long legs, I can't sit still in a confined space. I hate being tall. It gives me these sort of problem, making me train my bloody useless willpower. It makes me grumpy most times. So not comfortable at all. My legs and my ass hurts.

I hate people who makes me wait. Seriously, think that they are some queen or kings? Those gotta die too some day. How can they just conveniently forget? What are they, senile?  Don't freaking work then. You don't belong here, you belong in the old folks home. Go away. Wrong universe.

It's Obvious

It's been so obvious that I am lazy
It's been so obvious that I am always doing things half-assed
It's been so obvious that I am always demotivated
It's been so obvious that I am unable to concentrate
Look at my last post and you'll figure it out

I have been trying my best to work on a story and I realize, my muse has been going on holiday for far too long. Reading books like Fifty Shades series are not helping at all. It's like my daily activities are killing my creative juices as well and I don't know what I can do, like seriously.

A call for help isn't ? It's so obvious that I just wanted an easy way out, which I presume is the same with everyone else. And we all know that the easy way out isn't going to happen. Miracle only happens to those who really needs it. Not for people like me.

Let's just say I am bored and I do not know how to continue my story, so I decided to randomly ink here and there and everywhere.

For Charity, Not for Your Bloody Publicity

Before touching onto related post about the topic, let's have a moment of silence for the victims of #MH17 as they are coming home today to Malaysia for burials. They will always be remembered and condolences to the friends and families of those affected. I'm again deeply saddened by this as I know, in this very flight of MH17, there were a great number of kids in the flight, all just awaiting to go for holiday, not the last flight of their life. Rest in peace, poor souls.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/themalaymailnewspaper?fref=photo

Now, seriously, I believe most nowadays know about this #IceBucketChallenge but, does anyone really know what is it for and the true cause of it ? I believe not. Everyone seems to find it fun and wanting to do it for the sake of publicity, and most especially, wasting the precious drops of water.

Hey, the true hashtag of ice bucket challenge was #ALSIceBucketChallenge and what is ALS? Not much people even bothers to go look this up and let me tell you what it is for the benefit of you lazy bums out there.

The official website of ALS : http://www.alsa.org/about-als/what-is-als.html

To summarize this, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) or a disease often referred to as "Lou Gehrig's Disease"  affects nerve cells in the brain and the spinal cord. In time, ALS patients suffers from movement difficulty to total paralysis. As of current, there are no cure for this disease although there are some medicines here and there being developed to slow it down, not totally stopping it. Probably because not much people knows about it since mostly affected was those adults between 40 and 70 and with only 2 out of every 100,000 people will get the disease each year, this Ice Bucket Challenge thing started as an awareness campaign.

So, I don't need to further explain the ice bucket challege since most people knows about it. But what people don't know, is why are the celebrities doing it. People, it's not being done out of fun, it's being done to raise awareness about ALS and also to DONATE. See, you don't know bout this part now, do you?

The ice bucket challenge started in the States when this golfer guy, Chris Kennedy, a golfer from Sarasota in Florida, was nominated by a friend to it and soon his friends started doing it and the hashtag #StrikeOutALS came along together with the #ALSIceBucketChallenge . The craze started on July and by end of July, the ALS Association reported a dramatic increase in donations. Yes, DONATIONS is what it's all about.

Starting from the States, the craze went on to infect people all over the world, doing videos of them doing this. The videos usually consist of the person saying who nominated them, pours the ice water on themselves, nominates someone else to do it within 24 hours or donate $100 to ALS Association and that's it. What they FORGET was the part to DONATE.

Kudos to Charlie Sheen for doing it right and Steve-O from Jackass for saying it right.

Source: https://uk.celebrity.yahoo.com/gossip/omg/charlie-sheen-does-ice-bucket-challenge-but-with-money-instead-water-legend-122120251.html

Source: http://instagram.com/officiallysteveo

So there you go, the challenge is one thing, the donations is another thing, so people, once you've done the challenge, don't forget to educate them WHERE to donate for the ALS Association.

Kids, For Love, NOT FOR FUCKING ABUSE

It's been quite tormenting to see news of child being abused physically, mentally and sexually. It's even more tormenting to see news of newborns being dumped just down the drain like that. It kills me further to see what happens to kids in war zone.

One would always ponder, does these tormentor have no sense of humanity left in them? Does these tormentor knows the pain felt by the child ? In a human of such small size, such innocence and they have to suffer the wrath of the grown ups? You'd think that serial killers and psychopaths have no sense of what I just said, but I would say those people, those beast that harms a child, is far worse than anything. Oh wait, even a beast would fight for their child, so these are lowlifes worse than a beast. They do not feel, they are humans reanimated into life. Zombies. Dead wearing a human mask tormenting only kids (Walking Dead theme playing in background)

The worse lowlifes that I've read about, is the child very own parents doing harm to them. I definitely cannot comprehend what goes in their mind and I am loss at words to describing them. My vulgarities fail me here.

As a mother, as a human, we feel pain even when we pinch ourselves, and know that the pain is amplified double when it happens to a small child. So how can these lowlifes not know? Oh wait, they mostly don't because simply they are lowlifes.

Renting Out Daughter to Beg? Seriously? Being poor is not the reason you should use your child like this! You have hands and legs, you are not disabled are you? A family of seven, why can't you just do something simple like offering cleaning services or even sell nasi lemak on the streets to make a living ! Why push your child out to beg!

This is totally unbearable. Students forced to perform oral sex? Why in the first fucking place you made a knowledge institution to teach !!! To garner monies and have free sexual fun? These institutions, kindies, nurseries, they are supposed to be a heaven, a play place for the kids to learn and grow, not your fucking money making night clubs. You fucking pedophile should be bloody stoned to death or tied to pole with rats chewing your balls off. Yes, this is a torture sentence of the Middle Ages. Lots of lowlifes made these kind of place and in the end, either they could not care enough for the children sent in, or they just have to beat the kids senseless just for simple things. AGAIN, WHY MAKE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE?

Newborns being dumped in toilet or just left to die moments after coming out. These... (grips knuckles and cracking 'em) I don't know why these horny sluts can't just get a fucking pack of condom which costs bloody RM3++ from 7-Eleven and use it. Instead, they just have to get fucking pregnant, and give birth and dump the babies leaving them to die. Hey, even if they have given birth and can't afford to raise the baby, can't they bloody fucking put them at orphanage? WHY THE FUCKING MENTALITY OF LEAVING THEM TO DIE? DAMN SLUTS. What have these poor souls done to you? You yourself chose to have unprotected sex and get pregnant, nobody fucking forced you. Even if you are fucking forced onto or raped, godforbids, don't be an asshole and kill the poor soul, give them away or fucking abort before they fully developed into a fetus.

Vulgarities are not even enough for me to curse at these lowlifes and I need more than simple curses at these people. Speaking of torture sentence of the Middle Ages, some of it could be relived to use for these lowlifes.

Unfortunately enough, cases like these happens often all over the world and not much of people tend to report them for fear of something bites them back in the end. People, please, there are tons of NGO for you to turn to if you ever come across cases of child abuse or whatsnot. You've even got the government counterpart Talian Nur from Ministry of Women, Family and Community Development to assist. Appealing to them or the political parties may help in whatever ways people need. Hell, please, USE MR.GOOGLE FORGODSAKES. STOP CHILD ABUSE.

Let me share a dream I once had, it wasn't a pleasant one. I dreamt my baby was taken from me violently, kidnapped I'd say. I can't be sure because I don't remember the details, just vivid details and the feelings but why I say kidnapped? Because I remember the frantic, anxious, sad, angry, nervous, worried sick feeling in the gut. The next thing I remember is that I went berserk in midst of trying to find her and the world gone red. Meaning? I will stop at nothing and it will cost you your dear life slowly and painfully that you'd wish it's Satan himself instead of me coming at you for taking my baby away from me or causing harm to her.

My Breastfeeding Journey (Part 3)

This time, this is definitely gonna be the part that most parent dislike the most, but definitely no way of avoiding this. I mean, everybody does this no matter the age. POOP. Yes, everybody dislikes this part, same goes to me. But you still gotta clean up that mess your kids made. 

Normally people would think that it naturally stinks. But believe me, breastfed babies stools smell differently. Not badly stinky smelly type, but more like stinging maybe like sickly sweet smell. That's how I would describe it. Most parents would not be sure how it would look like or smell like or even how many times a baby would poop a day or within a week. Questions like that arises all the time because, this is definitely how you'd monitor your babies health.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TheBreastfeedingAdvocatesNetwork/

This picture above says it all. Follow the guides and it will tell you perfectly how a baby roughly should be although most people would say, different babies different thing. More or less true that. But, generally, it should follow as per the picture. This way you do not need to worry if they are well fed or not. 

Another part related to poop is that, most mothers raise their concerns that when their babies reach 2 months and above, some babies just don't poop for more than 3-4 days. Now, reverted from my pediatrician, some babies just don't poop for up to 7 days. But once over the 7th day, you better bring the baby to go check up. I mean, you don't want to get bloated belly and not knowing what's going on inside. Bad stuff.

Again, different babies different thing. Once a mother even shared that her baby did not poop near to a month, either you send the baby to check up or some would revert that if the baby is fully breastfed, they can even go up to 40 days no poop. So long the baby is healthy, good appetite, clear urine, no fatigue or temperature, then all is good. You'd be worrying for no pooping, but some mothers worry bout pooping almost every feeding, THAT is normal too. 

Poop colors may change from time to time due to mommies diet, for instance, that greenish poop could be from moderate to heavy fruits and vegetables intake or more foremilk than hindmilk. Differences in poop color, you may refer to this useful bunch of information here: Diaper Decoder. There's nothing to be worried about usually when it comes to poop and pee. 

Source: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TheBreastfeedingAdvocatesNetwork

This wonderful network really shared a tremendous lot of information that a breastfeeding mother would need and thanks to this great bunch of mothers inside, even with bumps here and there, I manage to breastfeed my baby girl up to 8 months now heading to my second milestone which is the BIG 1 year old. Yay to me !

Of course, as the baby grows, their intakes consist of solids and let's not forget the scariest part, teething. These two condition do affect the stools. For instance, intakes of solid, depending on the diets, babies MAY or MAY NOT poop that often and their stools gradually loses that sickly sweet smell to just plain nasty smell but not as bad as fully solid like your own poop smell. REALLY.  The color may also change to be a little blackish, or brownish maybe. When it comes to teething, it would be stickier and looks ... seedy but not seedy. There might even be slightly hard stools. This is where the parents would have to remember that each time you feed your babies with solid, you'd have to feed them equal amount of water. Of course the mother would have to drink more water as well. 

So you see, there is no way one can really avoid doing this part of the job when you're a parent! 

Darkness In The Hearth

Darkness looms over the day,

Paths become unclear,

Trees and flowers wither away,

It doesn't matter where you hide,

It will still haunt you by the end,

It will still haunt you endlessly.

Nervous, fear, anxiety covers you,

Cold sweats breaking out,

Bloodshot eye darts left and right,

You can run,

But you cannot hide,

You know it will and can still haunt you.

You cry out for help,

Your silent cries went unheard,

Like water poured over leaf, 

It went ignored even if it is heard,

Nobody listens, 

Nobody cares.

You reach out your hands,

In hope that someone will reach yours,

Held out as you may,

The hands were frozen overtime,

No warmth came to you,

All that's left is just hard cold chills.

All that's left to do,

Is wonder if anyone,

Or anything,

Will hear you,

Will see you, 

Will cross your paths,

Will reach out to you,

Or not. 

We Grieve, We Pray, We Remember

This month has not treated me any better than it should. All I can do is drown myself in my musics while working and at home, hug my little baby tightly. By now, the whole world are talking about the crash of MAS airplane MH0017. Hashtag #MH17 and #PrayForMH17 are going on wildly now at all social media. I have my own post on it as well, and this will be my blog post about it.

This year itself, MAS have suffered from the worst aviation incident ever, twice in a year. As we remember, it was the #MH370 which had tragically went missing and not found until now. Nights ago, on July 17th, slightly before midnight, news of MH0017 being shot down near or at Ukraine was all over the world. I couldn't be bothered with pesky news, I definitely wouldn't want to share the pictures.

People, here, I ask all of you to stop sharing those images and respect the privacy of those grieving families and leave them alone, especially you slobbing journalists. I know you people are trying to work, but people are hurting, they are grieving. So please give them a peace of mind, stop pestering these poor souls.

Here, a little short tribute to the lost souls on board:

All set,
Ready to go home,
Ready to go for holiday,
Ready to meet the loved ones,
Ready to spend memorable time with all,

Exhilarated with excitement,
Can't wait for the moment,
The next thing knew,
Everything went black.

Loved ones cried their hearts out,
The souls bleed,
The hearts cracked,
Millions grieved.

Pain stays, only to be numbed,
Prayers given,
Hope goes on,
Faith is that you finds it better to be with God,
Happily and merrily.

Memories were made,
It lives on when those that remember lives,
Memories will be passed on,
Memories will never fade,
We grieve, We pray and We will remember.

My Breastfeeding Journey (Part 2)

I know it's been a delay for quite sometime since I've last posted. Taking care of a baby is not easy and it is definitely tiring. My salute to other parents out there who have more than 3 kids. I do not know how you guys did it but it was simply awesome that you did.

Source: www.hlntv.com

On to breastfeeding part two, there is so much information and stuff to talk and teach about breastfeeding that I just don't know what to say now.

Okay, some simple ideas that you'd need when you need to stock up before going back to work, milks stored in deep freezers (below zero celcius) can last you up to 6 months at max. Milks stored in normal two door freezers lasts you up to 3 months at max. Milks at chiller can last you 3-4 days whereas milk outside at room temperature can last you up to 4-5 hours. Now, besides storing the milks, note that most time we'd have to smell the milks especially those stored outside on room temperature so that it does not have sour smell, if it does, discard immediately or make milk spa for baby. When you take out the frozen milk for feeding, you gotta thaw it by taking it out from freezer and put into chiller. Once it's thawed, it have to be consumed within 24 hours and if it's not finished, THROW THEM AWAY. Once you warmed up (NOT BOILING HOT cuz you're gonna kill the good bacteria inside) the thawed milk, it have to be consumed within one hour and again, not finished THEN THROW IT AWAY ! or save for baby milk spa, which I always do.

Source: http://blog.medelabreastfeedingus.com/

For different mothers, there are different types of food that boosts the milk supply and food that decreases the milk supply. Here are some samples:

Source from: http://healthfulmama.com

It's just some as listed on the picture. But, it's all about trial and error. For my case, nothing i eat increases my supply, it does help a little while, but after that, it doesn't help anymore. It's only of late that I stopped trying that my milk supply is a normal 4-5oz at every pump. Speaking of pumping for working mothers, I don't look at the schedule. I look at the last time I fed my baby, then every three hour gap at max four, I'd pump once. You MUST pump or feed your baby at midnight especially between 2-5AM as these are the hours when a certain body condition works the hardest to supply more milk. This ensures your milk supply is there and not dropping, which is equally important for all mothers.

Back to the foods that boosts or decreases milk supply. There are herbs that does the same. On early research for all mothers, the most common you'd hear about is fenugreek to help increase milk supply. But what about Alfalfa? Let's not forget that too. Herbs like mints, parsley, rosemary and a few more as per picture below, decreases the milk supply, so beware.

Source: www.pharmacologyweekly.com

If you're not sure on what to eat or not, go download this app called LactMed on your smartphone. It has most details on what to eat or not and side effects (if any). Visit http://kellymom.com/bf/got-milk/herbs_to_avoid/ for more information or ask Mr.Google, your best friend or call your paed.

My Breastfeeding Journey (Part 1)

It's kinda long to be writing about it down now. But heck, here goes. Before that, credit goes to a good friend, Jenny, and the great group The Breastfeeding Advocates Network (TBAN) for support !

As some of you probably noted, I'm a new mother of a wonderfully adorable daughter, Elanor Wong ! 

I know, she looks like a boy and she's bald. She looks exactly like her father, thus, the boyish looks... By the way, this is her at 4 months old.

While I was pregnant with her at my first trimester, Jenny recommended me to join this group at Facebook. She shared quite a number of great details before I joined them. Surfing the web on how to take care of myself while pregnant is one thing, getting into labor is another thing... the hardest part, the most wonderful part, breastfeeding her. 

The moment she was born, I regretted not telling the nurse and the doctor that I wanted to breastfeed her immediately, skin-to-skin contact to get the bonding started. I know a lot of mothers complained that they do not have a lot of milk or it doesn't kick in immediately. Rest assured that by latching the baby on, the colostrum (the first phase of the yellowish milk that is darned good for the baby for them to build the antibody) will come in and not much. Why? Bear in mind that newborns do not have a big stomach. 

So, please don't worry about supply not being enough until after 2nd month.  After finding out about how much newborns feed, I proceed to think bout am I latching her on correctly or not. This is where the government clinics nurse comes in to the picture. They came to visit, checking on my dear daughter see if she is healthy or not and teaches me how to latch correctly, how to hold her, how to pump the milk using the hand (this technique is called marmet) and so on. 

Apart from that, in the first few days after I'm discharged from the hospital, I got badly blocked milk ducts. This could lead to a situation called mastitis. One could get fever and probably discouraged from keep breastfeeding the baby. Thankfully, my mother was being supportive of me and went checking with other experienced moms on how to handle it. She made fish head soup with raw papaya (green ones), rice paper pith and red dates for me to drink. The night itself, the milk came leaking out and the relief comes as getting engorged with no release really hurts and I can barely sleep. Besides helping with the relief, it apparently boosted my milk supply and I have to pump my milk out as my daughter can barely keep up with the supply. 

Here she is as a newborn !

Of course, she was not spared of the jaundice. Her readings was over 200 and she had to be admitted to the hospital for phototherapy for one night. My heart broke and I can't stop myself to tearing when I heard that she had to be admitted for that. Thankfully, with breastfeeding, although it took almost a month, her jaundice reading decreases and she's fully healed. All I need to avoid during her jaundice was to eat lesser or totally avoid ginger and wine. Oh, I forgot to mention that there's a confinement session for Asians (not sure bout how other race does it) and being a Chinese, there's a lot of rules of what to do/eat and what's not to do/eat. 

She gradually healed and as a normal healthy baby, she gained good weights throughout the journey. She was born at 2.7kg and now at 4 months old, she's weighing a good 6.5kg. Tripled the weight and I feel the pain in my arm whenever I feed her. Not that I'm complaining. Happy but exhausting but in the end, it's all totally worth it.

At this age, the cheeky-ness becomes her trademark already... Speechless but hilarious!

She really had me laughing all the time and nothing else matters when she is around me. She is all that I can see now, well, of course hubs is jealous at that but he also does the same, so all is fair ! I already foresee myself spoiling her badly and despite what people says, I always wished that she is stuck at this age, never growing up so I can keep her like this forever. But of course it's impossible. 

On my next post on breastfeeding, I will share out foods to eat/avoid to boost/that decreases milk supply and other details ! It's definitely a good learning moment as she grows and despite being exhausted, it's terribly fun and the bonding is the most precious moment ever.

It's the Prank Day

SO.NOT.COOL. Yes, I don't really like getting pranked on April Fool Day but again, who on earth likes it. Pranking others is definitely fun, but not when you are the one getting pranked. Let me know if you like getting pranked okay.

Apart from this, I stumbled across a video of funny pranks. I'm suddenly reminded of a prank that actually caused a death. (Yeah, that is why pranks are NOT COOL) But heck, that video is not true. It's kinda like an educational video of pranks-gone-wrong.

So yeah, imagine if this is a real prank and real thing, that girl, Rachel a.k.a Cindy Vela, would have died for real... But no, it's not, so here's to ease your mind that it's a fake prank. Snopes website proved that it's fake. You want to know what's more hateful ? Those freaky-almost-real-ghost pranks... I hate those the most. I know it's hilarious when you watched it... But imagine if you are the one there... Oh I can be scared shitless and I admit it...

This... seriously, is damn good, but without doubt, scared the shit out of everyone in the toilet... And another one below...

I'm sure everyone knows this devil baby in New York. It's a famous video made by a professional team who made the devil baby as well. Kinda gross if you ask me... When it comes to babies / kids.. I'd prefer something like this ok...

She is without doubt the cutest kid in Youtube for now. I mean seriously, look at her expression and the part when she says yes to eating ice cream at 0:16 second. She is seriously adorable !!! I'm MELTED, like literally.

Moving On

Well, it was just the other day when our country Prime Minister announced that the plane MH370 is "lost" and "ended in the Southern Indian Ocean". Basically now all the hashtags in facebook and twitter has changed from #PrayForMH370 turned to #RememberingMH370. Following the announcement, the next day all the radio stations in Malaysia played sad and solemn songs as well as words and thoughts of the public is played live. Even the news announcer also read out the news with a sad voice. Or was it just me?

Irregardless, as this is an international case, media all around the world questioned the words of our Prime Minister, asking for evidence to support his statement that the plane is truly lost and all hope of survivors gone. A lot of people put a lot of hope in the search, still in hope for a sign of survival. Some denies the statement and some just go on as announced. I for one, could not be bothered about it, not because it has nothing to do with me. It's as simple as I still have a slight hope for miracle and IF there are no survivors, all I know is that God loves all the people in MH370 more than anyone else and they are with God. Of course, they will forever be remembered by everyone...

Believe me, it hurts to read about the news especially after finding out that there are toddlers in the flight and I, being a mother to an incredibly adorable daughter, aches for the parents and relatives because I couldn't bear to even imagine losing my daughter. NO, CUT THIS BLASPHEMOUS THOUGHT. That is beyond freaky. Worse than your worst nightmare.

Saying I know is definitely easier than done, but, life is all about moving on. Whether we like it or not, the world and time keeps going and moving without waiting for anyone. I do believe Every lost souls, even those not in the flight MH370, wishes their loved ones to move on and not dwell in grief, just mourn for a little while is fine. Again, I know it's difficult, not easy but we have to do so. I know how it feels so because I've been there and it hurts like a bitch but I have no choice but move on, because of a very simple reason... the dead ones don't come back...

Prayers and thoughts are with you and for you people out there suffering. Let's have a moment of silence for all of them...

Malaysia Airlines MH370 Missing and Haze Madness

It's totally crazy. Malaysia is like suffering from two insane situation at the same time and so sudden. Beginning with the first one, the missing Boeing 777 Malaysia Airlines Plane MH370 that has left from Malaysia and was supposed to be heading to Beijing. It has already been missing for 5 days now since Saturday 8th March 2014 shortly two hours after its take off. The greatest thing is that, Malaysia is at the world stage now where everyone is focusing on this incident and trying to locate the plane. US sent out their warships to help to find, the Viets and Indonesia sent out planes to help, China digged their satellites for images to look for clues of wherebouts of the plane. So many other countries are helping to look for our poor missing plane.

From a small search area, it has been expanded when they failed to find the huge Boeing 777 plane. Seriously, with a total of 239 people inside and including infants, I'm totally sick to the core hearing about this news in the first place and now, the world especially China and Malaysia are praying hardly for the return of these people. 

If you notice the building on the most right, next to Aurora, there's a display of MH370 word there. This is their method of praying I guess. Various images of praying for the return of this plane has been shared all around... 

Everyone just want them to be returned. It's most devastating when news of your loved ones are suddenly missing and with the whole world helping to find, you still can't be calm as there is still no news about their whereabouts, are they safe or not... So upsetting... 

On the other hand, the other thing that should be frowned upon... Despite the effort to look for the missing plane, let's not forget that Malaysia are suddenly clouded heavily with... HAZE the most health threatening thing that's going on right now. Visibility are reduced badly for those on the roads, those working outdoors are constantly breathing in bad air and suffering from various problems, difficulty in breathing, skin dryness or itching, depending on the person. Despite the large volume intake of water, hey, we're also suffering from lack of water! 

It's bad enough to the extend where I can even smell the bad smokes in my room with all the doors and windows closed. It's bad enough that this haze time made me purchase an air purifier for the sake of my family, especially my little girl. Thanks to the bad haze that has been going on nowadays, so many jokes are being made...

Ultraman fighting a monster here... Oh there's also a case of Ultraman King banned in Malaysia. Google it up.

Another one seen here... Apart from the top caption, there's also a small caption at the bottom that reads, "Who's afraid of Godzilla? We've got the Haze!" 

I can't wait to see what other people gonna cook up to talk about the haze and the missing plane. In case you do not know, there's tons of embarrassing thing happened while the plane is missing. I'll give you a hint for you to google for... "Shaman" (In Malay, it's "Bomoh") 

Yet Another Drop of Tear Saved

The typical mongrel that I am,
Everywhere you see, I am there, because we all look alike
But you see, that's what I am,
The typical mongrel that you see on the streets,
The ones that are unwanted.

I am born on the streets,
Grew up not knowing who's my mom two months later, because you see,
She's just gone like that. I don't know if I've got siblings or not.
Left to fend for myself, I contracted illness.
Because you see, that's the typical mongrel that I am.
Hungry day and night, Cold and hot and yet, nobody cares.

Small humans threw sticks and stones at me,
Big humans swing their hands at me,
Some big humans even threw water at me and yelled at me.
Oh, did I mention, there's even some that threw me to the street,
When all I ever wanted was some scraps of their foods.
Or maybe love and attention perhaps?

As one of the lucky ones, I've been saved from the streets,
By a group of kindhearted people.
But you see, I'm still homeless in a way. I'm still sick and I fear humans.
They put me in a cage, fed me what they can afford to, hosing my waste off with me still in the cage.
I'm still shivering in fear, cold and hunger, not to mention pain as well.

One day they just brought me out of my cage,
To where I do not know. Perhaps to a walk? Play hopefully?
After some distance driving, they brought me to a place, put me in a cage again.
Why so many people? Where is this place? Are you going to bully me or beat me again?
But wait, you mean no harm to me, I can tell that much.
You going to bring me home? Pretty please?
I'm the typical mongrel, not your famous breeds of dogs or cute small sized dogs,
But I will love you as much as you love me, that much I can promise you.

Like any other dogs, I can be trained, love and get along.
Treat me well and I'm all about you.
Despite being the typical mongrel that I am.

Similar But Not The Same, WattPad vs Keitai Shousetsu ( 携帯小説 )

Previously, I've mentioned before about the infamous trend going on in Japan called the Keitai Shousetsu ( 携帯小説 ) where mobile phone users write using their mobile phone and their stories on each chapter is quite short but interesting. An American website, TextNovel.com, lets its user experience the same way as the Japanese does, only it's in English  (●´∀｀●) hurrah for me too!

Now this brand new site that I came across, is somehow similar to Keitai Shousetsu feel but different in a way, whereby, instead of writing short on each chapter, authors can write as if they are writing novels. Very western feel to it. （￣ー￣）I like this too of course. Wattpad is without doubt, a site filled with good story tellers. I've been hooked on to a few unknowingly and have been continuously following their story. Very addictive if you ask me. 

Unlike TextNovel which have an application that is available in iOS platform, Wattpad have application for both iOS and Android platform. Interestingly, it is also available on Blackberry platform. 

Another plus point for Wattpad is that, if you like the story that you are reading and you would like to share it to your other pals on other social sites, you can actually choose to embed them to your websites! Of course you can share them on Google +, Twitter, Tumblr and etc. Nice, isn't? I don't need to mention about Facebook as well, do I ? Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

Pros and cons shared, I like both sites and am still following the stories from both sites. What can I say, writers from around the world fascinates me and the way they spin their plot out is even more interesting. That is what I like about these writers. Unlike those who had their books published, these writers are more raw and true, sometimes, writing out of their own feelings and fantasy. 

Get The Pee Stain Off My Bed !!

Ever since getting a puppy of my own, life was kinda busy and pretty much a different learning curve. Many thinks that getting an animal is of no big deal, just like pet fish. NO ! That is NOT TRUE. Even getting a fish means lots of commitments! If that's in your mind all the while and you want to get a pet, throw the damn idea off that wee brain of yours then. 

Getting either pet, whichever that tickles your fancy, means devoting your time, love, money and everything to them, like you do to your dear family members, because, the moment you get a pet, you add in an extra family member. In my case, feedings and clean ups are mainly my chore. Playtime? Leave it to the man to do it. 

So, back to the topic, the lil' dog, being the sweetpie that she is, sleeps with us on the bed at night of course.

This is my lil' baby ! Coco ! But like a human kid that has gotten used to wear diapers, they do not know when to NOT PEE on the bed. Yes, my little baby pees on the bed on and off. Imagine the horror in my face when I saw it each time. Having to wash the sheets is one small matter. The biggest problem, the mattress. The stains and the odor ! They are the main killer. So what do I do? 

The God that I pray to. The answers that this God gave me is, nonetheless, awesome. Why? I got the one best solution to get the stains and odor out of my mattress. Since it worked on kids pee stains, I figured it should work on pets too and voila! It does! Details below is all credit to: Inspired Housewife Blog 

So here's what you need to get started:

You need a measuring cup, tablespoon, funnel, and spray bottle.

8 ounces/237 ml hydrogen peroxide 3% (this can be found in a brown bottle in the first aid aisle of most pharmacies or stores. It's sort of an antiseptic for washing wounds. Best place to find it in Malaysia is the pharmacies.)

3 tablespoons/45 grams of baking soda

1 drop of liquid hand dish washing soap

Mix all ingredients into the spray bottle, do not shake the bottle, and use within 20 minutes.  Do not attempt to store the leftover solution. because it will leak out of the bottle.  The mixture only works if you use it immediately, because the cleaning byproducts are active for only a short time period.  You should see the stain lift and disappear within 5-10 minutes.  Once the mattress dries, if a baking soda film remains, then simply wipe or vacuum it off.

Here's my before and after result. I'm seriously glad it worked for me. It's a cotton bed by the way. 

After the whole thing fully dried off, even the watermark is gone. This solution really works wonder. So, moms at home and pet owners, have no fear on putting your kids/pets on bed with you!! Takes time to train them to pee on proper designated place, even for kids. 

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For people who reads, which I doubt much will even do so. Just a little imagination running in my mind so I decided to unwind it into a little story.

A little story of a girl who's constantly being that brave little one, no matter who is the bully or how big is their size, she'd stand up against them, protecting the bullied ones. This resulted in people looking at her in a weird way, girls not wanting to hang out with her since they figured she is boyish, I mean, she's strong in her own way. Guys hang out with her since they think she can fight like a guy too. Then again, in this little girl mind, all she want is just to protect people who she can call, "Friends."

As she grows, she kept on doing the same, irregardless who was bullied. She's everyone's protector in school and all the way until college. But life takes a turn when she felt that she's being left out, unable to love since hey, all guys treated her like a "brother". Girls feared her and stayed away from her since she's kinda too vulgar for them to be able to accept. So who is "friends"? This question keeps popping into her mind every now and then. 

Finally, when one day a group of people who accepts her for who she is appears, one by one, forming a big family for her, so she thinks. Blending into it for years, she had never felt happier than before, I mean, come on, she finally finds someone who she can love properly, "friends" that she can rely on, call on, talk to, have fun with, love at and protect. Little did she know, it's all just her. 

So one fine day, this kid just had to go and make a stupid little mistake. A little mistake that costs her the "family" that she built. Choosing the wrong path of life I would say. Again, this kid comes to think of the same question again after so many years (sigh* aren't you bored at the least?), "Who is friends?"

Strong as she may be on the outside, she never fail to break down every now and then when she is alone especially in the shower. Think about it, who could tell why is your eyes all puffed up after shower? You can always give the excuse of, "Oh, shampoo got into my eyes bad." 

So technically, when I thought of it, I laughed at the kid that is in my imagination, then again, I truly did pitied her. I still hadn't been able to come up with an ending for her, seems like it's too early, something like that. Maybe I can elaborate it into a long story? I don't know. 

Festive Eats !

I know it's kinda late in blogging about this but heck, I always believed in better late than never right? Enough said, in my country, Malaysia, last week was a week of fun, eats and play as we have a time called Hari Raya for the Muslims in my country. It's a time where family get together, eat together, and other wonderful things after a month of fasting. The best thing about these two month is that, FOODS!! Never ending of wonderful mouthwatering foods!! 

Most of the foods are without doubt, very sinful, and very delicious. I would say it is all a must have. It's undeniably fattening, but hell, which awesome food is not? That's the reason why they are awesome right? The top picture is what we have, called Lemang. It's sticky rice cooked in bamboo and believe me, together with the curry, it's fabulous! I'd never have enough of that.

 This one, I believe most knows it. The infamous satay ! Depending on your choice, you may have various type of meat to cook. My personal favorite, beef and chicken! Some even comes with rabbit meat or camel meat. Ohhhh, ostrich meat are delicious too. Juicy and tender! Together with the curry that's mixed with nuts, it's an awesome treat that one can have for dinner and yes, just by eating this alone, you can be actually very full. Price vary but cheapest of chicken meat it cost about RM0.30 per stick. Totally worth it. 

The lovely darling here, is the traditional nasi lemak ! The name itself mean fats. But then again, it's delicious!So, who cares! Really, when it comes to this one, it's also another must have during this wonderful season. It's a must have, cannot be missed, MUST EAT meal. I do so insist. You can practically find it everywhere and I personally like those that is served like this. Brings out the tradition in it and yeah, for some reason, it taste better served on banana leaves. 

This is like an extra, but also one of my favorite. It's called Ayam Percik. Not sure how to translate this into english but it's chicken meat with some awesome marinated sauce. Seeing it with the sticks, yes, it's meant to be grilled. It's definitely a huge piece, with each stick enough for a person, especially if you're a small eater. Mostly, during the fasting month, this is sold in the market and the aroma of this would overwhelm most ! :D I do miss this the most as I can only find awesome ones during the fasting month. Other than that, it's not so nice. 

Of course, another perks of having these sort of festive season here in this country is that, in town, it's usually empty and there's no traffic or whatsoever. We always look forward to such festive seasons as it gives great foods, smooth as white tofu traffic, family gatherings and of course, away from work and classes. It's a get fat and lazy moment, but, everyone loves it.

So The Wise Says

Regardless how many times you hear people say words of motivation or whats not, by the end of it, it is always easier said than done. Take my situation for instance, I feel like shit right now and a dear friend of mine told me this, "Complain about it also one day, fretting about it also one day pass, so why not just smile it off?" I know that, but again, easier said than done. It's kinda hard to control emotions, ya'know? 

Words like these are sweet and motivational, isn't? How many of you really live this off? What about when you are discriminated, looked down at, bullied because of various reasons?

That's what they said. But everyone needs a daily dose of this to get things going I think. Nobody is born awesome, perfect, genius (OK there's quite a number with this one), or heck, even saintly. All right, I'm exaggerating but I think in truth, nobody is truly perfect, so yeah, we do need a daily dose of this thing to get our self going. 

We are what we are. We are just humans. We feel, we think, we critic, we hate, we love, we cry, we laugh or even worse, we kill. We're made of flesh and emotions, we're not robots. Don't blame others or even yourself when the negative mind comes. It's just there for a moment, don't dwell in it. 

Regardless of type it's for, I think it applies to most situation, even mine :) So really, get over it, stop dwelling in the past, walk forward, shall we? There's more of these everywhere, so we all just need to google it up :D

It's the Life !

Pretty much everything has changed for me and I'd say, a hell lot of things changed in fact since the last post. Undeniably, I was lazy, now, I might as well a pick up my pace. I half considered closing this blog down and carry on with the new one elsewhere. That will be discovered soon. As of now, I'm going to keep on using this site for my blogs. Technically, for now, I'm lost at what to post, thus the constant delaying on updates. I'm no longer the one going out for parties and clubs or whats not. Rather, the life has gotten really dull. Maybe it's what most people say, part of the process of growing up and sacrificing for something else. 

 True enough, I am indeed sacrificing most of my time for something else. That's to be announced when it's all done :D On a side note, I'd like to point out to all that stop expecting party pictures,hot chicks, hot hunks or whats not in trend. I don't do trend. I set my own trend. Look at it this way, people are crazy about minions right now, here, in my country. Minions as in those mini yellow guy who speaks alien language in Despicable Me.

Yes, these little yellow guy in jumpers with goggles on. People rushes to McDonald's and queue up from midnight or whenever to it's open just to get their hands on these little guys. See what the crazy queue and traffic it caused? Both caught at different state in my country.

These two pictures is sourced from my friend, Shuffler Kenneth. Notice those long ass queue? I'm probably dead asleep while these people try to get their hands on the minion toy and throw the foods away, untouched. Now that's truly despicable. But, hurrah to these bunch of people! 

These guys collected the unwanted meals from those hobos that bought the the meal set for the minion toy and donate them to various homeless and orphanages. It seems like they have taken down their Facebook page or  I'm just purely lousy at looking up for people/group in Facebook. Whatever it is, if you don't eat them, give them to those who can't have proper meal, damn it. Don't go wasting foods and just cuz we're not living in Bosnia or Africa, doesn't give you all the damn right to waste foods. 

The Sleep

Some friends I have, keep posting up sleeping pictures when I was feeling exhausted like as of right now, especially after lunch, getting stuck in the office, in midst of the rain, nice air conditioning... holy crap... I'm practically imagining this

Yes, despite Honey-kun being cute, oh my gawd I hate this... despite the screeching sound out of the office that distracts me,(yes, i keep hoping there's an accident that I can see from my workplace) I'm still feeling sleepy and aching discomfort from the exercises that I had last night. Can't make up my mind if I'm feeling the pain or the exhaustion more.