The Pain

It was seriously irritating enough that the whole day I was sick with diarrhoea and not even getting enough food to the stomach. I consider it most irritating and annoying that I never did get any fucking foods into the stomach. Hey, a fucking piece of nuggets and small porridge never will satisfy the black pool of sacrifice in me. I’m terribly irritated and angry and even though I can see that, although trying to suppress it, it’s still not working…

No more freaking bazaar foods for the time being and screw this, I’m sticking with the safest style of eating. Go-back-to-where-you-normally-do. Don’t wanna die a hungry ghost ya know ? It’s a hassle and a pain to do so. Best part of all, I’m already weak enough from feeding the toilet bowl whole day, I’m so irritated, I’m so easily pissed, it never helped when my mom called me to wake me up and hearing all sort of noises and contributing to the headache this time… Surprisingly, while writing this and turning on loud musics on my netbook never did contribute to any pain at all while the other noises do.

Oh, the first word that came to my mind when my brain starts to function because I’m pissed, was Awe-noisy-fucking-some… FML seriously….

Jolly Jolly Day

I’ve never been this happy before in my entire life. Those that knows me back in my high school or even primary or even the kindergarten, they can be a witness that during those entire years of mine, I’ve never scored well or even done anything well for any academic related stuff… when I said never, I mean NEVER.

YES, MS KRISTY HAS NEVER DONE

WELL ACADEMICALLY BEFORE.

How surprised can one get ? I love surprises. But back to the original topic I was going to tell… It was just yesterday, 25/8/2010 during class break in college, I went to collect my result after one of the mates telling us that we can get our result already. Needless to say, I was pretty freaked out and nervous bout it since I know that there is one or two subject that I’d probably do pretty badly. But when I was shown to my results….

I GOT ALL As for my 5 freaking subjects !!!!!

I’VE GOT PROVE FOR IT AND IT HAS MY NAME

AND MY ID NUMBER WRITTEN ON IT SO IT’S MINE !!

AND I DID NOT FREAKING CHEAT !!!

I can’t stop jumping around and I immediately spread the news by sending out mass sms to all my friends. Best of all, when having lunch with Adrian, poor guy was terribly irritated by my non stop poking his arm and keep going like omg omg omg in front of him. But seriously… I can’t believe this even after a freaking day !!!

New Semester !

Well, class has started and I'm on my second semester ! Congratulations to me! Whoopee!! I know it sounds crazy and you'll be like, hey, it's just your second sem, so why make a big fuss out of it ? Well, most didn't know that I never did finish my studies when I was in HELP college. I dropped out and I became a failure in life. Seems like things are taking a good turn for me in every single aspect. Family, relationship, studies and of course, no career.

I got what I wanted, I did what I wanted and I know I'm totally blessed with everything around me and I'm not boasting about it. Making it into the second semester for my studies is like taking a big leap in life. Just like my relationship. To be in the second year of my relationship with boyfriend, seriously I couldn't stop being amazed and cherishing every moment of it. My past relationships never lasts even more than a year ! The longest being, 10 months? My studies are just like that. Never even finish the first semester, never even sat for the exams and I left just like that.

What a stupid person. But then again, everyone has their time when they were naive, stupid and idiotic. I think mine has passed. Well, this song definitely inspired me even further :D



Hats off to you my man.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

Blah Blah Blah

Quite random post for the day since I'm pretty much bored and the itch from the infection is kinda irritating...



I forgot where I got this scratch and it's quite deep at the end of it. It got infection at one point and I kept applying some cream on it, now that it's healing, it irritates me even more with the itch and I can't freaking scratch it, cuz if I do, I'm not braced for the sudden sharp needle pain. It'll be bad for my heart.

I found these two picture hidden in my phone and it was taken while I was at Slash concert at Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach. I know it's not great since I don't have any big time cameras like DSLR or any cool digital cameras. Can't afford it and don't bother to and since my phone works like any other camera, I can grab some pics just nice enough to entertain myself. If you don't like it, feel free to scram. I'm cheap and I know that. Not everyone is high and mighty like you are. So shove it up your ass, thank you.

It's Never Wrong

I see them together, smiling and cuddling
I yearn for your touch,
The forbidden touch that sends a thrill
The touch that leaves one weak

The fantasy that goes on in the mind
Leaves the body wanting yours even more
Leaves the mind wanting you even more
This is never wrong
But yet it's forsaken

The nights without you beside in the bed
The want to hear your soft breathing next to me
The want to feel your touch on me
I still remember what it feels like
When your hand touches mine
It leaves me wanting more

It's not supposed to be like this
It's not allowed to be even in the mind
But the touch that leaves the thrill up the spine
Makes me wonder what it feels like
To have you touching me

What would it take
To have you by my side
To hear you next to me
To have you touch me

to add in the feelings to this...

A Mistaken One

Everything seems so peaceful, so beautiful, so serene
But it was only watching from afar
It has nothing to do with all these
All those while, it was the one

It's not beautiful, it's not peaceful
It's constantly clouded by the wrongs
How can it not be when it was the one
Not being able to do anything
It was left aside without noticed

Anger, confusion, rejection, anxiety
What more could it feel
Sitting in the circle that is not complete
Trying to pretend that it was in a perfect cycle
It was only watching silently

It's a mistake
A total mistake in whatever it does
It's a mistake
A total mistake in whatever it chose
Even in its very existence
That it knows could not even be erased
It will continue to exist

Exist unknown by anything at all