Amazing Grace

I was reading this manga, called Akuma To Love Song (悪魔とラブソング, Devil and Her Love Song)and the main character, Kawai Maria, was often seen singing this song when she's upset. The lyrics of it caught my attention of course. Now, I've nothing against/about Christianity or what but, this song makes one feel lonely. I've never heard of the song before but when I looked it up, it all either sounded canned or ... it does make me upset.



Maybe I was a little moody when I listened to it, but, I do feel terribly lonesome when I listened to it.... I know I know it's supposed to be beautiful... I just can't help it, maybe I'm influenced by the manga.



I do love this version though... This sounded sweet :)

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

Spoil It Please ?

It's not as tough as you see
All it needs is just a little crack
You can see it all clearly when it's stripped
All it wants was just a little touch
Was it so hard to keep the body warm with your touch ?

Even the strong ones may be strong for some reason
But at the end of it, if you touches it
It gives in as you warmed it with your simple touch
Don't be so hard on it, please

You gave the hope but you took it away
Making it feel that it was not needed at all
It doesn't know what you think when you never talk at all
A simple hello and a little touch was all it needed
To know that it was the least in your heart and mind

To have you touching and caressing it
That would be its biggest wish and hope
Yet it knows that this will not come true
If you do not even show a slightest hint of interest
What does it need to do, to have you look in its way even a little ?

Please look in its way
Please keep it warm with your touch and all
Spoil it please ?
It's a tough time to go on without the warmth

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I just realized that this has been going on for some time already... I'm totally speechless but at the same time, finds it hilarious.



Yes, if you scroll all the way down my blog page, you'll find it there if it's still around. I was laughing when I first saw it but now I'm stoned cuz it kinda portrays the wrong thing for my blog image...

Oh, for those that can't read Malay, (yes it's in Malay), it says something like... Husband getting Pre-ejaculation? Now with the ability to hold for 1-3 hours, Order online here for RM120.00... ohmahgawd...

My Birthday !

It's not really a surprise but it's sweet enough for boyfriend to take me to Aquaria KLCC. I thought that it's not gonna happen since we woke up quite late and had to wash the clothes. I had half a mind of staying home and bumming with him instead of going out when all the sudden he got ready to go out. Kept pestering him where on earth are we going and he kept answering me back, saying that you will see when we get there... zomg... we did end up at the Aquaria.

I wanted to go there since hey, I do like the marine life a lot. I was amazed at the size of the arowanas shown and of course, we got there in time to see the shark feeding as well as the piranha feeding. It was pretty cool. Too bad we couldn't stay any longer to see the otter feeding time but, I'm happy enough. It wasn't a big place but it was pretty enough to look at. I definitely liked the shark areas more since there's even a human sized sting ray and half a human sized turtle to see. Piranha feeding time was the best to check out since there was an announcer there to explain about piranhas and asked the crowd, how long is it gonna take for a school of piranha to finish out a fish ? It takes only 1.52 minutes... It was freaky to look at...the way they attacked the foods and yeah, I touched the teeth of a piranha and it was needle sharp and sturdy... imagine that...

The sharks had nothing much to look at but the turtles are funny, it was so greedy and it kept going near to one of the divers trying to steal the food out from the diver hand. From there, they named it Greedy... literally...

It was a good day out and at night, we ended up with dinner at my house. Save the money since we ain't having a good financial time with me no longer working. But what the hell, I had a good time. ;)

What Just Happened ?

I know I am supposed to work on my assignments and stuff... But as I was browsing through for references to my work, I came across this site, Apartheid Fort New Zealand and whatever that is posted inside, just made me went, oh wait, what just happened to the world ? Well, news of two teenagers heartlessly bludgeoning a defenseless seal as well as tourists getting killed in NZ? Bestiality and child porn for "relaxation"? The land of kiwis are definitely something !

Best title I came across was, How Dangerous is New Zealand for Asian, women, children? I ain't gonna click on that title to read the content and needless to say, although we know that 2012 would most likely be the end of the world, I don't want to end my life faster with the heart attacks that I will get from reading bout it. If we live through 2012, I'm taking New Zealand out of my list to visit someday.

Yes, I know that there is always a good and bad thing wherever you go. If I'm not mistaken, this should be around Scotland region or maybe in UK itself, I can't remember. But hey, you'd wanna go there with some extra securities since there was incidents of robbers that would rob anyone and to end it, they slice open your mouth like how Joker (Heath Ledger) in Batman is. It's sort of like a ritual or something that I've read about and hey, it freaks anyone out.

I'll definitely have to think twice of the places that I'd like to visit in the future when I've got the money or when we survives 2012...

Short Story of IT

It’s funny when I realized that whatever I left behind long time ago grows into a beautiful thing in the end when I’m not looking. Is this what they call, appreciate whatever it is that’s in front of you now and not take it for granted? But, why is it that if it was something that I paid full attention to, regardless how I struggled to, it wills never blooms? I know I’m not supposed to look into the chest that I’ve locked away with the old mementos, but once a while, when I took a peek in the chest, I couldn’t help but feel a sharp tugging feeling.

At times like these, one couldn’t help but feel confused over the time as obstacles were blocking the path. Whenever the road with two path comes along, one would always stood there and ponder, which is the right one to take? One knows that never regrets whatever decision it has chosen after but, soon enough, when trouble arises, regrets cloud its mind. Well, obviously it knows that there won’t be a right or wrong path to take as both will be filled with thorns and rocky paths, but, everyone would be glad to have a smooth road once in a while, right?

One would know too that, as it goes along that path, friends would come and go. But it hadn’t realized that it was being used as well, in a painful way. Truly it can’t be that blind, can it? Being lied to for years, words as sweet as honey were poured and words as bitter as drugs were exchanged. It will definitely be painful when it awakens from the fact that it was not loved at all, it was despised and used all the time as a toy. Poor, poor thing, what more could go wrong? It was definitely stupid enough to believe and listens to them.

The Ugly Creature

Recently in my journey of life, I've come to know a new type of creature that when it laughs, it sounded like a freaking hyena. It never ceases to annoy the shit out of everyone and makes people hate it. Of course, its habitat is truly a disgusting place that no human could bear to go near it for one would just vomit instantly at the smell of it.

Whatever it is, I’d never want to find out about it since when it opened its mouth, vulgar words were spewed and it will stop at no cost to tie its partner down. Yes, no matter what it takes, it will make the partner suffer and yet, it does it in a smart way so that the partner does not know but assuming that the suffering was brought upon the partner by its own self instead of the other creature. It’s definitely a total self pawn.

Well, that was just my filthy imagination but yes, its description was bits of people that I take here and there and even myself. But, the hell, to think that humans can even has such disgusting nature. You can’t blame me for wanting the end of the world to be real and if it is, I’d wish for it to happen faster than you can imagine.

Life has been tormenting me lately and plus all the additional craps that idiotic people gives, it never helps to brighten my day even more. How stupid and inconsiderate can they be? How lifeless can they be? How annoying and irritating can they be? How much more pain must they give before I truly explodes in front of their face? Now, that is one thing that one would give its all to not see me explode. I swear to you, dear god, if I do, please close both your eyes. 