May 13, 2010

True or Not ?

I cracked when I see that even now our banks are giving a legal license to the debt collection company to "kill" in their own way. We all know fairly well that we've always placed the cops in our country under the category of 'LEGAL' ABUSER or something like that. Now, even banks ?

I just read the papers online and yeah, I feel sorry for the woman who lost her husband who died from heart attack, thanks to the debt collection company sending him 120 SMSes in a day asking him to pay up RM7,000 due to a credit card debt. What fuckery is this ? I mean hey, sometimes people just need time to pay their debts, you know? If no rooms are allowed to talk things out before actions, all hell break loose right ? Some conversation comes into my mind when I read the news and it's something like this ...

Debt Collector : Pay up or I'll bombard you with 120 SMSes a day till you freak out or die !
Man : No wait, let me explain first !! Have mercy !!
Debt Collector : Mercy ?! Who gives a crap about it ! I want money !
Man : Let me expla....
Debt Collector : No ! Be prepared to be bombarded by our SMSes !!

(Man's phone start to ring like mad, making man panic and killed him in the end)

Wife : YOU KILLED MY HUSBAND !!
Debt Collector : I didn't know he is this weak. Anyway, PAY UP!
Bank : Yes, please pay up or we will sue you.
Wife : But, YOU JUST KILLED MY HUSBAND !! (wails)

Technically, that's what that has been going through my brain after I read it. But hey, we will never know for sure if it's entirely the banks fault or not in this part. I just can't help thinking this way, I mean like, thanks to one of my class in college and the lecturer being so enthusiast in questioning the media, she got me started thinking too. It's like, everyone wants money, right ? So the paper sells something that the public wants. So, just how much story in it that is true ? Not just the paper of course, I'm talking news about anything that you find everywhere, written by anyone. Ever thought of it ?

May 9, 2010

Walking on a Thin Thread

Ever since the day I started my college life, my life has suddenly went upside down tremendously. I was in constant depression and my mood swings were getting worse, making me feeling more exhausted than ever trying to suppress all these annoying feelings. I guess the main problem comes from trying to cope with younger people and losing my pride of being a dependent woman... It's not easy, you know?

Coping with those people in the college would work out somehow. I've had enough with them not trying to help themselves or something and seriously, I just want to get my freaking diploma and get out from this life. It irritates me a lot thinking about the fact that people my age should be working instead of studying. A diploma, not a degree. What could be worse than this? College being a pain in the ass, mates being unreliable. My pillar of strength are crumbling as time passes.

There are times when I just want to break down and cry since trying to put on a strong face just hurts so much. But if I do, I know I'll go even weaker. My pride are being tossed aside and I've got to ask help from my family after more than 5 freaking years of me not doing so. Life with boyfriend are getting painful too as both were facing financial difficulties. Of course, hopes of getting an easy way out is always there but I know there's no shortcut in life. I know I've got to get a part time or something but the fear of not being able to cope with assignments and work at the same time, I don't want to repeat the damn course at the damned college and I just want to make my life be the way it was back then.

Thinking about I've gotta endure this whole crap for about 2 and a half year provided I don't fail in a single subject just pressured me even more. I know I've been going negative but I just can't help it. How can one still stay so positive when the life you've known are no longer around and you feeling helpless like a little baby? All the supports and the promises that were given before I start this college life were gone. Thinking the fact that I can't do anything for mother's day pains me even more...

May 4, 2010

Pampering Myself

I've totally forgotten about this until I got a call this morning during class from them...

"Hi, I'm calling from Recharge and I'd like to confirm a few details before I send you the invitation for this weekend ... "

Like I said, I was in class and the lecturer was busy explaining to others bout the color wheel for Flash program. I was kinda dazed as well, so, I can't really get what the caller was really telling me except for those and confirming my other registered details. It's only after I told boyfriend about the call and I found out that it is...



Hah! Talk bout being in bad luck with the college loan. I'm getting my entertainment and I got to pamper myself for free here !!

I've never been to this event before but I heard they've got beauty tips, free massage, nail art stuff and loads more. Oh, I forgot to mention that this event is only for ladies, didn't I ? God, I love being a woman.