Been feeling so exhausted lately. Is it just me or is it the M season? (m – Menstruation).
Not only that, from yesterday, I hadn't been feeling well...from sore throat to flu to...headache...the worse thing that could ever happen to me...Must be the M season...not even the medication that Anthony gave helps.
Felt like such a troublemaker around Veron, Vince and Anthony. Doesn't matter anymore since I'm going to take my stuff and move back home tonight. Thank you Kevin for helping me out here. I really owe you one. Thanks a lot as well for the songs you send to me, especially Lullaby from Emily Rossum. It somehow, comforts me a lot most of the time each time i listen to it when I'm feeling weak...Thank you.
Lullaby – Emmy Rossum
Laying alone with the history that made you
Cold and uncertain inside
Well careful now, deep breath
The water's still rising
But your silver linings inside
When you
You feel like you're breaking down
And ya, your body's just giving in
And ya, you can't go on broken like this
Any longer
Close your eyes
Don't you cry
Let the sorrow within you subside
Don't despair
Have no fear
Give your way to me when you hear
This lullaby [Lullaby]
You say all seems so wrong with the life that you're living
You're searching for some reason why
You're so scared to trust
You're feeling unworthy
Aching for comfort tonight
When your heart's too sore to beat
And ya, you fear it might never heal
And ya, you feel not even beggars want you
I do
Close your eyes
Don't you cry
Let the sorrow within you subside
Don't despair
Have no fear
Give your way to me when you hear
This lullaby [Lullaby]
Close your eyes
Don't you cry
Close your eyes
Don't you cry
Let the sorrow within you subside
Don't despair
Have no fear
Give your way to me when you hear
This lullaby [Lullaby]
Don't you cry
Let the darkness within you feel alive
Don't despair
Have no fear
You'll find comfort in me like a child
With this lullaby [Lullaby]
This lullaby [Lullaby]
Don't you cry
This lullaby [Lullaby]
Close your eyes
Dec 28, 2007
Dec 23, 2007
Happy Birthday, Anthony !
Come to think of it, Anthony's birthday and Veron's birthday ain't that far apart... Or is it because i have nothing to post about? Maybe...But anyway, since today it is his birthday, i thought i might as well as just post something up.
Unfortunately for him, unlike Veron's birthday, we can't do anything for him as we're all broke already (c'mon, it's end of the month anyway). Worse of all, he chose to work today and heads down to Johor Bahru by himself. Needless to say, as Veron has explained to me and even without her explaining, it's so obvious that he ain't happy even though today is his birthday. He is depressed. Why? Simple, first off (all these are just my guess), for all i know, it's mainly because of his girlfriend. I know they broke up already but i can tell as well that he can't get over her. Besides, they must have planned for something nice for quite sometime already to celebrate his birthday but unfortunately, they broke up. Plans off, depression comes along, he goes keep himself busy and avoiding the hard facts. I hope i am making sense here. It's just a guess anyway.
Sometimes, there is something that we can't control. Things just happens be it we ask for it or not. What the heck, i writes as if he is gonna read this. As a token of appreciation (even though i know chances are slim for them to see this), thanks alot Anthony for fetching me all the way to work everyday even though it's freaking jam early in the morning most of the time, thanks for the breakfast as well and yeah, it's fun most of the time watching you trying to wake Veron up early in the morning and she would scream and kick at you. You guys really do crack me up. Each time you keep pestering me why i am being mean to you and being so nice to vince only, that's cuz Vince is easy to talk to and he talks nicely and he pays attention to what i said. I respect that. You, on the other way round, sometimes can even like, well i don't know if you heard what i say or not...but what the heck, i feel ignored and i didn't grow up learning to be invisible. Ahhhhh ignore this rubbish. I just ain't good with talking. Simple easy facts.
Anyway, that doesn't matter. Bottom word is, Happy Birthday to you and i hope you will do well in your business here in Malaysia. Hope you'd be able to achieve your dream ! Best Wishes !
Unfortunately for him, unlike Veron's birthday, we can't do anything for him as we're all broke already (c'mon, it's end of the month anyway). Worse of all, he chose to work today and heads down to Johor Bahru by himself. Needless to say, as Veron has explained to me and even without her explaining, it's so obvious that he ain't happy even though today is his birthday. He is depressed. Why? Simple, first off (all these are just my guess), for all i know, it's mainly because of his girlfriend. I know they broke up already but i can tell as well that he can't get over her. Besides, they must have planned for something nice for quite sometime already to celebrate his birthday but unfortunately, they broke up. Plans off, depression comes along, he goes keep himself busy and avoiding the hard facts. I hope i am making sense here. It's just a guess anyway.
Sometimes, there is something that we can't control. Things just happens be it we ask for it or not. What the heck, i writes as if he is gonna read this. As a token of appreciation (even though i know chances are slim for them to see this), thanks alot Anthony for fetching me all the way to work everyday even though it's freaking jam early in the morning most of the time, thanks for the breakfast as well and yeah, it's fun most of the time watching you trying to wake Veron up early in the morning and she would scream and kick at you. You guys really do crack me up. Each time you keep pestering me why i am being mean to you and being so nice to vince only, that's cuz Vince is easy to talk to and he talks nicely and he pays attention to what i said. I respect that. You, on the other way round, sometimes can even like, well i don't know if you heard what i say or not...but what the heck, i feel ignored and i didn't grow up learning to be invisible. Ahhhhh ignore this rubbish. I just ain't good with talking. Simple easy facts.
Anyway, that doesn't matter. Bottom word is, Happy Birthday to you and i hope you will do well in your business here in Malaysia. Hope you'd be able to achieve your dream ! Best Wishes !
Dec 18, 2007
Happy Birthday, Veron !
Like what the title says, it's her birthday today! Even though we celebrated it earlier which was like, last week saturday by going down to Port Dickson and have BBQ. There is like only four of us again, Vira can't make it, cuz he has to study for his exam, Chloe can't make it too, cuz she is slightly sick. What the heck... Anyway, the amount of the foods we got is too much...we can't even finish it! Wasted so many cocktail hotdogs and chicken wings...Somehow, it was fun watching them trying to BBQ the foods, there was a part where Vince actually threw the fish, the hotdog and a chicken wing into the charcoal...well... Don't ask me... I'm speechless there and Veron is busy scolding him.
Not to mention as well... I feel tortured on that night as suddenly, i became Veron's maid or slave or whatever. But, like she said it, it's her birthday anyway. However, come to think of it, it wasn't the exact day anyway. *Sigh* Doesn't matter anyway.
Well, i'll have to get off here. Happy Birthday to you girl, you've turned 23 after so many months of dwelling over it ! Dwell no more ! You said you can finally officially go into Velvet without worrying when people asking for your Identification Card ! haha! HuGs n KiSSeS !!
Not to mention as well... I feel tortured on that night as suddenly, i became Veron's maid or slave or whatever. But, like she said it, it's her birthday anyway. However, come to think of it, it wasn't the exact day anyway. *Sigh* Doesn't matter anyway.
Well, i'll have to get off here. Happy Birthday to you girl, you've turned 23 after so many months of dwelling over it ! Dwell no more ! You said you can finally officially go into Velvet without worrying when people asking for your Identification Card ! haha! HuGs n KiSSeS !!
Dec 11, 2007
PhunkyTown First Gathering @ Maison on 8th Dec !
all the chickas at the entrance!! Whats the guys doing at the back...? 
PT's creator vash and girlfriend JoEy
PT's lovely couple mod Cha0sTheory and Tenshi
evil_angel a.k.a Lei GonG GonG and Princess shireen_nsl
Our DriNks are finally here!! xD
Cheersss mina-saan~!!
my pet brother, DarreN1127 and his wife at the back 
Drunken princess and me ! Don't fall off princess!!
Girls in PT, Me, Princess, Tenshi and her sister, Little Onion!
The guys in PT, Clubnutz, evil_angel, ZapZap, Cha0sTheory and enocent.
Princess with her knights! most Right is Tattoo511
Lei Gong GonG ur DruNk!!
Yeah! Happy Family! 
Me and Grandpa, enocent
Little Onion, Tenshi, me , ClubnutzThis is PhunkyTown!! www.phunkytown.net Check us out!!
Dec 10, 2007
Restless Nights
Why does it have to be that the nights are so hard to go by? Every working people wishes that the days can go faster so that at night they can rest. I just sat on my bed and couldn't even think of anything at all. Of course, how can i when all different sort of thoughts are rushing through my jumbled mind?
Must be all the bullshit that i've went through lately. Turning on the music doesn't help much either, which normally it is supposed to help me out. Everyone is complaining about their life. I'm going to rumble in out right here, right now. All the sudden i just had the urge to stay right in front of my PC and blog the whole night out. Maybe i'm yearning for someone to see what i'm facing and wished for them to help me out...If they could ever, that is...
How can it be that when i don't even really know them, they could have hurt me so much? One by betraying my trust? Another by breaking me apart? Seriously, what's the worse that could come by?
Again, when i reached home earlier, while writing the previous post, (1 stupid bottle, 1 stupid mistake) my mind was full of anger and i feel kinda devastated. I just poured it all out on the post. Now, listening to this chinese song about love but mentioned the two legendary couple, one which is Romeo & Juliet , another a chinese one, Chuk Ying Toi and Leong Seng Mou (i think that's his name). I'm pretty sure everyone knows about the Romeo & Juliet story. This chinese couple is a legend where in the end, the guy died, the girl forced by parents to marry a wealthy man, jumped into his grave when it suddenly cracked open while her carriage pass through it and finally, they became a pair of butterfly. Legends. Watching those movie, i think i will finish up at least three to four boxes of Kleenex. LoL~
Each time i complained about my life, unlike some people (don't worry, there is nobody in particular i am talking about), I know what is my lousy problem. I knew it and i can see it very well. It's just that i do not know how to handle it. It kicks the life out of me just to think about it. Each time it's like life will just give me that sardonic grin whenever i think about it...uGh!!
Can't wait to get my blardy ass out of this lousy flimsy country!!!!!!!!!! HELPPP!!!
Someone kill me or kidnap me out of this country to other better one (if i could choose...please? pretty please with sugar on top?) How about someone just come and sweep me off my feet so i do not need to worry about my monetary support and alot of shits for the rest of my life! Right? But make sure it's the right guy, not some show-offs or wanna-bes that will drag my life down.
Must be all the bullshit that i've went through lately. Turning on the music doesn't help much either, which normally it is supposed to help me out. Everyone is complaining about their life. I'm going to rumble in out right here, right now. All the sudden i just had the urge to stay right in front of my PC and blog the whole night out. Maybe i'm yearning for someone to see what i'm facing and wished for them to help me out...If they could ever, that is...
How can it be that when i don't even really know them, they could have hurt me so much? One by betraying my trust? Another by breaking me apart? Seriously, what's the worse that could come by?
Again, when i reached home earlier, while writing the previous post, (1 stupid bottle, 1 stupid mistake) my mind was full of anger and i feel kinda devastated. I just poured it all out on the post. Now, listening to this chinese song about love but mentioned the two legendary couple, one which is Romeo & Juliet , another a chinese one, Chuk Ying Toi and Leong Seng Mou (i think that's his name). I'm pretty sure everyone knows about the Romeo & Juliet story. This chinese couple is a legend where in the end, the guy died, the girl forced by parents to marry a wealthy man, jumped into his grave when it suddenly cracked open while her carriage pass through it and finally, they became a pair of butterfly. Legends. Watching those movie, i think i will finish up at least three to four boxes of Kleenex. LoL~
Each time i complained about my life, unlike some people (don't worry, there is nobody in particular i am talking about), I know what is my lousy problem. I knew it and i can see it very well. It's just that i do not know how to handle it. It kicks the life out of me just to think about it. Each time it's like life will just give me that sardonic grin whenever i think about it...uGh!!
Can't wait to get my blardy ass out of this lousy flimsy country!!!!!!!!!! HELPPP!!!
Someone kill me or kidnap me out of this country to other better one (if i could choose...please? pretty please with sugar on top?) How about someone just come and sweep me off my feet so i do not need to worry about my monetary support and alot of shits for the rest of my life! Right? But make sure it's the right guy, not some show-offs or wanna-bes that will drag my life down.
1 stupid bottle, 1 stupid mistake
It all begins with a bottle,
Filled with different color of papers, but crumpled,
The bottle was packed,
It looked beatiful from afar, but not near.
Day by day as it fills with more,
The bottle starts to complain,
As it has no space anymore,
It could not place anymore papers inside.
The bottle keeps complaining,
That's all it only knows now,
To vent out its pain and frust,
Towards the stupid human who placed the paper inside.
Had enough,
The human, with a wave of his hand,
Pushed the bottle down,
Down it went, with a hard crash.
Just because of the pain, one stupid mistake,
The bottle looked sadly at its own remains,
Shattered on the floor,
Papers were being flown away,
By the cold breeze that swept past by...
"How painful can it be, you dare ask?
How much longer do i have to live with this?
Not even beautiful, only from afar, but not near,
You crushed me hard just like that...
Am I honestly really that stupid and useless?
Even after all these times I've been with you?"
The bottle cried.
Filled with different color of papers, but crumpled,
The bottle was packed,
It looked beatiful from afar, but not near.
Day by day as it fills with more,
The bottle starts to complain,
As it has no space anymore,
It could not place anymore papers inside.
The bottle keeps complaining,
That's all it only knows now,
To vent out its pain and frust,
Towards the stupid human who placed the paper inside.
Had enough,
The human, with a wave of his hand,
Pushed the bottle down,
Down it went, with a hard crash.
Just because of the pain, one stupid mistake,
The bottle looked sadly at its own remains,
Shattered on the floor,
Papers were being flown away,
By the cold breeze that swept past by...
"How painful can it be, you dare ask?
How much longer do i have to live with this?
Not even beautiful, only from afar, but not near,
You crushed me hard just like that...
Am I honestly really that stupid and useless?
Even after all these times I've been with you?"
The bottle cried.
Dec 8, 2007
I'm Perfect...Yet I'm Murdered
It's a very interesting title i got from another blogger...oops...sort of stole their blog title...I'm sorry but i just couldn't resist it. But it doesn't matter as i don't think the title will fit what I'm about to post.
Lately, I'm never home for i think about two weeks? Been staying over at Vincent's place each time after i got off work. Of course, my family doesn't know i stayed over a guy's place (he moved out and stayed alone) and another thing is, it's not just me that stayed over. Veron and Anthony was there too most of the time. Speaking of which, Veron is working for Anthony now anyway so more or less sometimes when they talk about work, I'm always stuck in between. I would enjoy listening to both of them arguing ( debating?) as they always are like...Anthony likes to take a piss out of Veron and she would always fall for that, ended up her whacking him. Vincent and i would just sit one side, shaking our heads and telling each other softly that we should let them sit together instead of me stuck in the middle...We would eat together, after work hang out together, chill at the house together, most of the time, we're together.
Sounds like a happy picture, isn't? Somehow, it kills me more inside as it made me feel more dreaded to go home. Yes, you can say I've finally tasted a real freedom. But yet, it comes with a price too. Beginning of the month only and I've already started to run low on cash to survive through the month. But i guess that really doesn't matter for me as long as i can see them, they've made me feel like a family, even though we're all just friends. I've never known that i would ended up feeling like this when I'm staying outside. Worse part of it? I hate to admit this but i had too. Since four of us are staying over at Vincent's place which is a flat with three room, one of it are rented out and another is made into a store room, which leave only one room for all of us. Needless to say, his room has a queen sized bed and a single mattress on the floor. Vince, as a owner of the house, he slept on the bed while Veron, queen of illness, would sleep on the bed too, leaving me and Anthony squeezing into the single mattress. Sad case, huh? Things got even worse when I'm getting very used to sleeping in that room, with them both on the bed and Anthony next to me... Now that I'm here blogging, it meant that I'm actually at home and have to sleep by myself. I felt so awkward right this moment even though, I'm at my own house. I don't even feel at ease anymore and I'm at my own house, in my very own room. How stupid can it be?
I feel like I really want to move out and stay with them, provided Veron don't make noise about bringing Vince and her dog back to the house...First, that damn dog doesn't really fancy me or maybe i should say, any Tom,Dick and Harry also it would not like. Personally, the first time i see that dog, i never liked it as it started barking at me the first time it saw me. I still have a dog phobia forgodsakes.
Well, of course, in a way, something are better left alone and let it just be a wishful thought...
Lately, I'm never home for i think about two weeks? Been staying over at Vincent's place each time after i got off work. Of course, my family doesn't know i stayed over a guy's place (he moved out and stayed alone) and another thing is, it's not just me that stayed over. Veron and Anthony was there too most of the time. Speaking of which, Veron is working for Anthony now anyway so more or less sometimes when they talk about work, I'm always stuck in between. I would enjoy listening to both of them arguing ( debating?) as they always are like...Anthony likes to take a piss out of Veron and she would always fall for that, ended up her whacking him. Vincent and i would just sit one side, shaking our heads and telling each other softly that we should let them sit together instead of me stuck in the middle...We would eat together, after work hang out together, chill at the house together, most of the time, we're together.
Sounds like a happy picture, isn't? Somehow, it kills me more inside as it made me feel more dreaded to go home. Yes, you can say I've finally tasted a real freedom. But yet, it comes with a price too. Beginning of the month only and I've already started to run low on cash to survive through the month. But i guess that really doesn't matter for me as long as i can see them, they've made me feel like a family, even though we're all just friends. I've never known that i would ended up feeling like this when I'm staying outside. Worse part of it? I hate to admit this but i had too. Since four of us are staying over at Vincent's place which is a flat with three room, one of it are rented out and another is made into a store room, which leave only one room for all of us. Needless to say, his room has a queen sized bed and a single mattress on the floor. Vince, as a owner of the house, he slept on the bed while Veron, queen of illness, would sleep on the bed too, leaving me and Anthony squeezing into the single mattress. Sad case, huh? Things got even worse when I'm getting very used to sleeping in that room, with them both on the bed and Anthony next to me... Now that I'm here blogging, it meant that I'm actually at home and have to sleep by myself. I felt so awkward right this moment even though, I'm at my own house. I don't even feel at ease anymore and I'm at my own house, in my very own room. How stupid can it be?
I feel like I really want to move out and stay with them, provided Veron don't make noise about bringing Vince and her dog back to the house...First, that damn dog doesn't really fancy me or maybe i should say, any Tom,Dick and Harry also it would not like. Personally, the first time i see that dog, i never liked it as it started barking at me the first time it saw me. I still have a dog phobia forgodsakes.
Well, of course, in a way, something are better left alone and let it just be a wishful thought...
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